Cant Imagine
Can’t imagine how much
it hurts knowing that the
one she has counted on
for so long is no longer
there for her to talk to.
Noone can imagine how
much pain she is feeling
knowing that she has hurt
him this way, knowing
that she is the reason
they are no longer as
close as they once were.
She keeps wanting to reach
out to him, but she knows
that she can’t, because she
knows that he is no
longer there for her as
he used to be.
The pain of that
realization is almost
as unbearable as the
thought that she has
to face life from now
on without the one
that meant so much.
She knows that she
pushed to hard and
broke what they had
between them. She
knows that the loss
she is going through
is of her own making.
However, that does
not change how much
it is all hurting her
knowing that now the
one she has always
turned to the most is
no longer there for her
to call on when she
really needs him to be.
Stripping her of all the
security that she once
felt at his side, she
now feels so alone
and scared to even
exist without him.
Burning up inside
because she knows
that his pain is her
fault and has been
many times before.
Knowing that she
should just let him
walk away as he so
obviously intends to
do even after everything
they have been through
together and knowing that
she pushed him to make
such a final decision.
Knowing that her pain
Is her own fault
because in the end
she is the one who
made the mistakes
and drove him to push
her away and now she
knows that he may
never look back or
even think about her.
© 2020 Emily