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Can You Unscramble My Mind?

Rdsparrowriter is a Sri Lankan Poetess written story books in poetry form. She's passionate and writes from heart covering subjects.

30/06/2020

HI, welcome to my hubpages :) I'm usually not into fault finding as I'm not a big fan of it, since things are a little too bothersome I ended up writing.

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Can you unscramble my mind?

Can you unscramble my mind?
Why I am the way I am I wonder?
I don't understand why it is in my mind?
Why I keep avoiding, all I can do is wonder..

Once there was a young couple
That lady mispronounced an English Word
So a little girl was looked down by the couple
Simply because she tried to teach the correct pronunciation of the word.

The husband of that lady said there's another word with same spelling
Since they couldn't solve the matter little girl asked another elderly man
For the correct pronunciation of the spelling
And elderly man not knowing the conversation said the same as the little girl.

I was in a side minding my own business
I was curious of the interaction so I paid attention
I don't understand even after so many years
I wonder if I have lost respect towards that couple's reaction?

I don't know why my heart keeps rejecting that lady's words
I have heard her teach or preach God's Word
Every time, I may hear but I don't seem to listen to her words
It's like I have lost interest in knowing if it is spoken by her.

I asked my mom why that incident affects me when I wasn't even part of the conversation?
According to her, I dislike that lady for not being humble
One can teach and preach all they want if not practiced by action
People see and listen how one behaves more than a rumble.

Usually I don't have issues with other people as I don't expect from anyone
Unless others have issues with me because I live in world of a bubble
Thanks to my mom's explanation I prayed for that lady and her husband
I hope they would leave aside pride and be more humble.

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In the Word of God it is said ask, seek and knock
I asked a teacher for his teaching materials
So I prayed and got all the courage I needed to ask
Instead of saying "No", he wanted me to ask from another for his own teachings.

I wondered was that too hard to give since he used to give me in his thirtees
So I seeked for the materials from the directed teacher
I knocked on his friend's messenger for the lessons
It was shut down by saying he is too busy.

Well, I was a little annoyed if said can't give in the first place
I wouldn't have wasted both my time and energy
When I complained it to my mom she said "Don't worry you'll get the materials"
According to my mom they are nice people.


So what I learn is that with growing of age people change
Just because you ask,seek and knock won't get answers
If I keep waiting and waiting I would dislike that teacher's change
Instead now I found someone who is willing to give me answers.

I wonder Papa God wants me to ask Him, seek Him and Knock Him for answers
After all God is the all knowing and promised to show more than I ask or imagine
Personally knowing not depending on someone else's teachings
According to the power that work in me I believe His revealing :)

Hope for today and tomorrow in Him :)

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Comments

Rochelle Ann De Zoysa (author) from Moratuwa, Sri Lanka on July 02, 2020:

Thank you Lady Dora :) Yes it seems that I'm learning from the incident that affected me :) God bless you!

Rochelle Ann De Zoysa (author) from Moratuwa, Sri Lanka on July 02, 2020:

Yes where there are people, we always end up getting into problems. I'm aware that no one is perfect that's why I don’t have expectations from people. No expectations means no disappointments. It's easy to be humble and submissive to someone who is elder than you are, but finds it difficult to be that for someone who is younger than you are. I agree with your comment :) Thank you for letting me know Lady Liz :) God bless you!

Rochelle Ann De Zoysa (author) from Moratuwa, Sri Lanka on July 02, 2020:

Thank you for letting me know Sir Billy :) Take care and God bless you!

Rochelle Ann De Zoysa (author) from Moratuwa, Sri Lanka on July 02, 2020:

Thank you Manatita for your kind words :) Yes, my mom knows me more than I do about myself. She seems to be having a sixth sense :) First incident happened six or seven years ago and I had no idea it could have an effect on me after so many years. Accepting it and writing it out actually helped me to calm my mind a bit :) Feels much better now :) Thank you for loving me and I appreciate your kind concern towards me :) Take care and God bless you!

Rochelle Ann De Zoysa (author) from Moratuwa, Sri Lanka on July 02, 2020:

Thank you Lady Lorna :) The first incident happened about 6 or 7 years ago. I didn't know that incident could affect me this much. Writing it out really helped me :) Stay safe and be blessed!

Rochelle Ann De Zoysa (author) from Moratuwa, Sri Lanka on July 02, 2020:

Thank you for visiting my hub Mr. Umesh :)

Dora Weithers from The Caribbean on July 01, 2020:

You're experiencing an interesting, learning part of your journey. You're gathering the wisdom you need to unscramble your mind.

Liz Westwood from UK on June 30, 2020:

You make some interesting points. The way I see it is that nobody is perfect. So there's a strong possibility that we will be let down at some time or that we will let others down. Whereas God doesn't let us down. He's always there for us. Sometimes people leave church because of a fall out. It's never God that they fall out with, it's the people that cause the problems.

Bill Holland from Olympia, WA on June 30, 2020:

I stumbled for about thirty years. I still do, at times, but not nearly as much. It is all right! Life is all about stumbling and finding a way to keep getting up and moving forward.

Blessings always

manatita44 from london on June 30, 2020:

Your last stanza is all you need. We are all weak and fall short of the glory of God. Don't beat yourself. Only a fool will tell you that he or she does not stumble. I note you have a wise mom. That's beautiful.

Wisdom does not come with age. Experience comes and helps, but wisdom is the flowering of the soul. Remember, Christ died at 33 and was doing miracles much earlier. So your mom is showing transformation in her nature as well as resilience and fortitude acquired from her good karma and prayerful life.

We all have something to let go of or we will remain ill. The mirror is not Tom's or Jane's, but ours. The resentment or fear ... the insecurity is ours. If you offer the most palatable food to me and if I do not take or accept it, it still belongs to you. In life, we may seem to hurt others, but truly we also hurt or selves.

Why was that little girl hurt as a bystander? Because life is just one flow of Consciousness/Spirit. When we see just Oneness, life is much easier to understand. We suffer because we see two: you and me; she and them... see we and ours, for we are one.

Love you, Rochelle. Write more, it will save you from a restless mind. Peace.

Lorna Lamon on June 30, 2020:

I think it was a good idea to write down these feelings and observations Rochelle. We cannot change the past we can only learn from it and our experiences make us stronger and wiser. You always write from the heart and I enjoyed reading this article. Your bible verse speaks of wisdom. Take care and keep safe.

Umesh Chandra Bhatt from Kharghar, Navi Mumbai, India on June 29, 2020:

Interesting narrative poetry. Good reading.