I stopped writing my novella a couple of months ago, and it has affected my mood. My soul always aches for something to make my heart feel again.
I had heard of Blackout poetry a few years back and I found the idea very original, but I was too scared to ruin a book- even books I was going to throw away. But tonight, at 11:00 pm, I decided to use an old book on Forensic Science, written in the 90’s and I teared up a page and my creativity kicked in.
As I created my first blackout poetry, I realized that I did not know what I was going to write, until I was halfway through the page. It relaxed me because all the stress, that made my muscles tense up, disappear because my brain is focused on words and pages.
You could be writing the darkest poem or the happiest, it won’t matter, you’ll end up with a smile on your face; it will be your work of art. You created something, just like painting, or writing a song. Your heart has bled on the page with black ink, showing the real world what your heart feels.
Sometimes, you will overthink too much and that is why you cannot express your feelings easily. This is why black poetry is so powerful. It’s not just aesthetically pleasing to look at but, it has a meaning that people will understand if they have been in your shoes.
My first blackout poem was with a blue thick pen and I did not plan on it to make any sense. (Figure 2) It talks about the fact that I rely on someone, who is nor real or present in myself, but her face is engraved in my memory and she helps me. ‘She can be sculptures of her,’ means that every mother figure I have that are alive with me, are connected with her. She is watching over me.
Without realizing it, my second Blackout poem (Figure 1), has touched home pretty close. ‘Death by poisoning’ is a metaphor for my relationship and I realize as I read the poem, that the only way I can cope is with substance abuse. I’ve been doing better since this January but I did not realize my unconsciousness wanted me to realize it and be proud of myself for getting better.
I will keep creating blackout poetry every day and see if they are still as dark or if they will be about love and the future.
© 2020 Anastassia de Bailliencourt
BRENDA ARLEDGE from Washington Court House on February 07, 2020:
I have not heard of writing poetry this way, but I see it clearly does work.
Congratulations on your success with substance abuse.
Writing helps one clear his thoughts connecting the real person to the world around him.
Thanks for sharing.