Dani is a survivor of an overdose, Borderline Personality Disorder, Bipolar 2, and Idiopathic Hypersomnia.

Inevitable

I wish. . .

I were--

different.

Child of a melodramatic--

mother.

Insensitive.

Narcissistic.

Cold.

Mean.

Inconsistent.

ill.

I wish. . .

I were--

normal.

Trapped in my head--

when sleeping.

Hallucinating.

Lucid.

Clawing on my insides--

Do what I say;

Body.

My life was fucked from the--

start.

Twin brother;

my rapist--

my abuser.

Parents turning a blind eye.

Tears and blood flowing down my wrists--

teen.

Alone.

Isolated.

Lonely.

Addict.

Recovered--

now.

Diary of a girl lost but found;

bloody and beaten--

emotionally.

Mute.

I was stunted--

Childlike.

Hurt.

Hugging my teddy to my chest at night--

for

comfort.

I told myself that one day it'd end.

It did.

I met someone.

Who loved me.

wanted to help me--

be a person again.

Saved and resurrected my limp body from the grave--

literally.

Miracle. |

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|

| healed.

I was beaten, bloody and abused, violated. 90 pounds when I was found abandoned like an animal witnessing my own mother murdered in front of my eyes. Calling 911 frantically when it was too late and I knew that. My life was filled of insecurity, abuse, neglect, narcissist, pain, and scars. I married the love of my life who took the time to heal me from the ground up.

We healed each other.

I only ever wanted to be loved and I have that now after 19 years of abuse.

© 2019 Dani Moore

Comments

Dani Moore (author) from Illinois on November 01, 2019:

Thank you so much, this means so much to me. Thank you for praying for me. I won't ever give up.

BRENDA ARLEDGE from Washington Court House on October 30, 2019:

So touching and heartfelt.

I can feel your pain.

I pray you are now feeling safe and loved.

Do not ever give up the struggle..believe it or not none of us feel completely normal.

Great write.