Dani is a survivor of an overdose, Borderline Personality Disorder, Bipolar 2, and Idiopathic Hypersomnia.
The title of my poem
Inevitable
I wish. . .
I were--
different.
Child of a melodramatic--
mother.
Insensitive.
Narcissistic.
Cold.
Mean.
Inconsistent.
ill.
I wish. . .
I were--
normal.
Trapped in my head--
when sleeping.
Hallucinating.
Lucid.
Clawing on my insides--
Do what I say;
Body.
My life was fucked from the--
start.
Twin brother;
my rapist--
my abuser.
Parents turning a blind eye.
Tears and blood flowing down my wrists--
teen.
Alone.
Isolated.
Lonely.
Addict.
Recovered--
now.
Diary of a girl lost but found;
bloody and beaten--
emotionally.
Mute.
I was stunted--
Childlike.
Hurt.
Hugging my teddy to my chest at night--
for
comfort.
I told myself that one day it'd end.
It did.
I met someone.
Who loved me.
wanted to help me--
be a person again.
Saved and resurrected my limp body from the grave--
literally.
Miracle. |
---- ----
|
| healed.
I was beaten, bloody and abused, violated. 90 pounds when I was found abandoned like an animal witnessing my own mother murdered in front of my eyes. Calling 911 frantically when it was too late and I knew that. My life was filled of insecurity, abuse, neglect, narcissist, pain, and scars. I married the love of my life who took the time to heal me from the ground up.
We healed each other.
I only ever wanted to be loved and I have that now after 19 years of abuse.
© 2019 Dani Moore
Comments
Dani Moore (author) from Illinois on November 01, 2019:
Thank you so much, this means so much to me. Thank you for praying for me. I won't ever give up.
BRENDA ARLEDGE from Washington Court House on October 30, 2019:
So touching and heartfelt.
I can feel your pain.
I pray you are now feeling safe and loved.
Do not ever give up the struggle..believe it or not none of us feel completely normal.
Great write.
