As I Was Before
I'd always dreamed of loving someone,
Knowing how to be,
With fearless faith and endless passion,
Both instinctively.
I always thought without a question
Love would bring me peace
Or be a piece to my completion.
Loneliness would cease.
Instead I fester in my prison
Utterly confined,
Completely tethered to emotion.
Love is undermined.
Contented moments I'd envision
Simply aren't there.
We silently avoid commotion
Claiming we still care.
Today I dream of loving no one,
Tethered nevermore,
Completely free from disillusion
As I was before.
© 2019 Ahky