As I Was Before

I'd always dreamed of loving someone,

Knowing how to be,

With fearless faith and endless passion,

Both instinctively.

I always thought without a question

Love would bring me peace

Or be a piece to my completion.

Loneliness would cease.

Instead I fester in my prison

Utterly confined,

Completely tethered to emotion.

Love is undermined.

Contented moments I'd envision

Simply aren't there.

We silently avoid commotion

Claiming we still care.

Today I dream of loving no one,

Tethered nevermore,

Completely free from disillusion

As I was before.

© 2019 Ahky