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All My Tears

Kari enjoys writing poetry. There is a certain freedom in poetry because you don't always have to follow the rules.

Dust Devils

Dust Devils

All my tears

are caused by fear,

quite irrational.

Fear of rejection.

Fear of failure.

Fear of losing what I loved.

Loving costs so very much

in tears and fears and years.

So just don’t love.

Don’t want, don’t hate,

just throw it all away.

Once it’s gone

the light comes on,

and I can see again.

Questions & Answers

Question: Is this personal experience (if you don't mind me asking) or general observation [of] life?

Answer: Personal experience.

© 2020 Kari Poulsen


Laurinzoscott from Kanab, Utah on March 29, 2020:

Anytime k@ri ...I pray you are having a blessed day

Kari Poulsen (author) from Ohio on March 29, 2020:

Thank you for your kind comment, laurinzoscott.

Laurinzoscott from Kanab, Utah on March 26, 2020:

Beautiful eords...I could hear the heart in them.. WOW

Kari Poulsen (author) from Ohio on March 08, 2020:

Thank you for your kind words, Mitara N. Love, light and happiness back to you.

Mitara N from South Africa on March 07, 2020:

Love, light and happiness to you Kari,

A beautiful read

Thank you for sharing

Kari Poulsen (author) from Ohio on March 03, 2020:

Thank you so much Eiddwen! I'll keep trying.

Eiddwen from Wales on March 01, 2020:

Great poetry here and looking forward to many more.

Kari Poulsen (author) from Ohio on February 06, 2020:

Thank you Shannon! I have had comments and/or answers disappear myself. I hope you are having a happy day!!

Shannon Henry from Texas on February 03, 2020:

Just wanted to stop by and let you know that I replied to a comment you left me on my hub about strength three weeks ago. Yikes! I didn't mean to pass you over. In fact, I thought I did reply to you. I remembered your comment and referenced it in another reply I just made to someone tonight. But I don't know where the original reply went. I hope all is well with you!

Kari Poulsen (author) from Ohio on January 06, 2020:

Mark, Sometimes we need everything gone just to see the next step.

Mark Tulin from Ventura, California on January 05, 2020:

You really grabbed me with the last stanza, Kari. Sometimes the light goes on when it’s too late.

Kari Poulsen (author) from Ohio on January 05, 2020:

Thank you, Ioannis, I love your meaning of FEAR. We are Australia, trying to stop the destruction.

Ioannis Arvanitis from Greece, Almyros on January 05, 2020:

FEAR: Face Everything And Rise!

Powerful words, Kari! A great message woven in some words with mastery! Admiration!

We all are Australia!


Kari Poulsen (author) from Ohio on January 04, 2020:

I'm sorry that my answers are so brief. This poem still triggers me. I know exactly where I was 8 years ago. However, the repeated exposure to it through all of your comments is easing the pain. Thank you all!!

Kari Poulsen (author) from Ohio on January 04, 2020:

Audrey, Thank you, capturing feeling is my ultimate goal. I still feel this way at times, but those times are fleeting now. May happiness and love follow you in 2020.

Kari Poulsen (author) from Ohio on January 04, 2020:

Thank you Paula, you flatter me! I am who I am because of the life God gave me. Send me an email if you like. :D

Kari Poulsen (author) from Ohio on January 04, 2020:

Shannon, I agree, we can't give up.

Audrey Hunt from Idyllwild Ca. on January 03, 2020:

Oh, Kari, you've managed to capture many of my own feelings and I thank you!

I wish you love, peace and lots of good stuff in this new year.

Suzie from Carson City on January 03, 2020:

Yes, I know that Kari.....I recall your story very well. It touched me deeply back when I read it, obviously. This is why I'm so proud of you and the woman you are today...all via strength, hope, trust, maturity & facing reality head-on. You're to be admired. You could teach those lost souls quite a lot. Wisdom is for sharing. I could talk with you for hours, Kari. Perhaps one day we shall. I'm minutes from leaving for the week-end.

I wish you LOVE &Peace, Paula

Shannon Henry from Texas on January 03, 2020:

Hi Kari,

What an emotive poem you have written here. Perhaps everyone has felt this way at some point. I certainly have. Right down to the last lines. Except that the decision not to love or get close to people is only as fleeting as the anger is.

Kari Poulsen (author) from Ohio on January 03, 2020:

Paula, Thank you! This is about a time in my life when I was the "lost" woman you describe.

Kari Poulsen (author) from Ohio on January 03, 2020:

Thank you Dora! Fear does blind us.

Kari Poulsen (author) from Ohio on January 03, 2020:

Brenda, Thank you so much! So many times it is our fear that drives what we love away.

Suzie from Carson City on January 03, 2020:

kARI......How touching this is....I can literally feel your emotions within this lovely poem. You know you are worthy of life's best and all the fulfillment possible. and clearly, you have the answer to releasing heartache & misery. You are a woman of substance.

Let's feel for the lost women who settle for less, live in constant fear & doubt. They have not yet learned how to break free nor have the strength to try. All they can do is hate their existence unless they live in fantasy and lie to themselves. Those are the women who live in darkness and pain. The LIGHT has yet to strike them.

I wish you the very best in this New Year & always. Peace, Paula

Dora Weithers from The Caribbean on January 02, 2020:

Great message, Kari. Fears hide the light, and we would love to see again! Thanks.

BRENDA ARLEDGE from Washington Court House on January 02, 2020:


This one touches my heart.

My fears exactly. Love does hurt so much, but I guess I don't want to see the light.

I am not willing to throw it all away.

I do occasionally see a glimmer of light.

I hope this New Year brings you happiness and love if it is meant to be for you.

No more tears...it hurts the heart way too much.

Kari Poulsen (author) from Ohio on January 02, 2020:

Thank you, Nell. Emotional pain can scar us for life if we let it.

Kari Poulsen (author) from Ohio on January 02, 2020:

Pamela, the hurt is always worse when it involves a loved one. When trust is broken. But, I agree, we need to stay open and not build the walls.

Kari Poulsen (author) from Ohio on January 02, 2020:

Thank you Bill, I am in a much better place now.

Kari Poulsen (author) from Ohio on January 02, 2020:

FlourishAnyway, loving isn't easy. I wrote this during a difficult time.

Nell Rose from England on January 02, 2020:

Emotional pain and fear is a horrible thing, you said it exactly here.

Pamela Oglesby from Sunny Florida on January 02, 2020:

There is sometimes a cost to loving but life would be quite empty if we didn't take the chance. I think your poem speaks volumes about emotional pain when we are hurt by someone we loved.

Bill Holland from Olympia, WA on January 02, 2020:

Dry your eyes and know that you are loved.Thank you for the reminder of the powerful force of love, my friend.

FlourishAnyway from USA on January 02, 2020:

Loving isn’t always easy. You definitely captured that, Kari, in this heartfelt poem.

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