All My Tears

Updated on January 1, 2020
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Kari enjoys writing poetry. There is a certain freedom in poetry because you don't always have to follow the rules.

Dust Devils
Dust Devils

All my tears

are caused by fear,

quite irrational.

Fear of rejection.

Fear of failure.

Fear of losing what I loved.

Loving costs so very much

in tears and fears and years.

So just don’t love.

Don’t want, don’t hate,

just throw it all away.

Once it’s gone

the light comes on,

and I can see again.

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    © 2020 Kari Poulsen

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      • k@ri profile imageAUTHOR

        Kari Poulsen 

        3 weeks ago from Ohio

        Mark, Sometimes we need everything gone just to see the next step.

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        Mark Tulin 

        3 weeks ago from Santa Barbara, California

        You really grabbed me with the last stanza, Kari. Sometimes the light goes on when it’s too late.

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        Kari Poulsen 

        3 weeks ago from Ohio

        Thank you, Ioannis, I love your meaning of FEAR. We are Australia, trying to stop the destruction.

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        Ioannis Arvanitis 

        3 weeks ago from Greece, Almyros

        FEAR: Face Everything And Rise!

        Powerful words, Kari! A great message woven in some words with mastery! Admiration!

        We all are Australia!

        Sean

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        Kari Poulsen 

        3 weeks ago from Ohio

        I'm sorry that my answers are so brief. This poem still triggers me. I know exactly where I was 8 years ago. However, the repeated exposure to it through all of your comments is easing the pain. Thank you all!!

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        Kari Poulsen 

        3 weeks ago from Ohio

        Audrey, Thank you, capturing feeling is my ultimate goal. I still feel this way at times, but those times are fleeting now. May happiness and love follow you in 2020.

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        Kari Poulsen 

        3 weeks ago from Ohio

        Thank you Paula, you flatter me! I am who I am because of the life God gave me. Send me an email if you like. :D

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        Kari Poulsen 

        3 weeks ago from Ohio

        Shannon, I agree, we can't give up.

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        Audrey Hunt 

        3 weeks ago from Idyllwild Ca.

        Oh, Kari, you've managed to capture many of my own feelings and I thank you!

        I wish you love, peace and lots of good stuff in this new year.

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        Paula 

        3 weeks ago from Beautiful Upstate New York

        Yes, I know that Kari.....I recall your story very well. It touched me deeply back when I read it, obviously. This is why I'm so proud of you and the woman you are today...all via strength, hope, trust, maturity & facing reality head-on. You're to be admired. You could teach those lost souls quite a lot. Wisdom is for sharing. I could talk with you for hours, Kari. Perhaps one day we shall. I'm minutes from leaving for the week-end.

        I wish you LOVE &Peace, Paula

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        Shannon Henry 

        3 weeks ago from Texas

        Hi Kari,

        What an emotive poem you have written here. Perhaps everyone has felt this way at some point. I certainly have. Right down to the last lines. Except that the decision not to love or get close to people is only as fleeting as the anger is.

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        Kari Poulsen 

        3 weeks ago from Ohio

        Paula, Thank you! This is about a time in my life when I was the "lost" woman you describe.

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        Kari Poulsen 

        3 weeks ago from Ohio

        Thank you Dora! Fear does blind us.

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        Kari Poulsen 

        3 weeks ago from Ohio

        Brenda, Thank you so much! So many times it is our fear that drives what we love away.

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        Paula 

        3 weeks ago from Beautiful Upstate New York

        kARI......How touching this is....I can literally feel your emotions within this lovely poem. You know you are worthy of life's best and all the fulfillment possible. and clearly, you have the answer to releasing heartache & misery. You are a woman of substance.

        Let's feel for the lost women who settle for less, live in constant fear & doubt. They have not yet learned how to break free nor have the strength to try. All they can do is hate their existence unless they live in fantasy and lie to themselves. Those are the women who live in darkness and pain. The LIGHT has yet to strike them.

        I wish you the very best in this New Year & always. Peace, Paula

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        Dora Weithers 

        3 weeks ago from The Caribbean

        Great message, Kari. Fears hide the light, and we would love to see again! Thanks.

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        BRENDA ARLEDGE 

        3 weeks ago from Washington Court House

        Kari,

        This one touches my heart.

        My fears exactly. Love does hurt so much, but I guess I don't want to see the light.

        I am not willing to throw it all away.

        I do occasionally see a glimmer of light.

        I hope this New Year brings you happiness and love if it is meant to be for you.

        No more tears...it hurts the heart way too much.

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        Kari Poulsen 

        3 weeks ago from Ohio

        Thank you, Nell. Emotional pain can scar us for life if we let it.

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        Kari Poulsen 

        3 weeks ago from Ohio

        Pamela, the hurt is always worse when it involves a loved one. When trust is broken. But, I agree, we need to stay open and not build the walls.

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        Kari Poulsen 

        3 weeks ago from Ohio

        Thank you Bill, I am in a much better place now.

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        Kari Poulsen 

        3 weeks ago from Ohio

        FlourishAnyway, loving isn't easy. I wrote this during a difficult time.

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        Nell Rose 

        3 weeks ago from England

        Emotional pain and fear is a horrible thing, you said it exactly here.

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        Pamela Oglesby 

        3 weeks ago from Sunny Florida

        There is sometimes a cost to loving but life would be quite empty if we didn't take the chance. I think your poem speaks volumes about emotional pain when we are hurt by someone we loved.

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        Bill Holland 

        3 weeks ago from Olympia, WA

        Dry your eyes and know that you are loved.Thank you for the reminder of the powerful force of love, my friend.

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        FlourishAnyway 

        3 weeks ago from USA

        Loving isn’t always easy. You definitely captured that, Kari, in this heartfelt poem.

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