All I needed was me
His words pierce through me
As does a knife through a beating heart
He knows how to anger and hurt me
so deeply, no other words ever could
The pain of those words chip away at me
I did not ask to be born of the flesh that I did
It isn't my fault who my mother was
Why must I always pay for her dislike
Why must I always be compared to her life
She wasn't me and I am not her
But his words want me to believe I am just like her
And those enunciations toil with my soul
They take me to this deep dark place
I never want to see
They take me to the deepest side of me
The one where the little girl is sitting
and still feels pain for all her past
It is for me like an open scar
That he keeps on cutting into, trying to re-open the closed wound
I thought he would free me with his love
I didn't know I didn't need him for that
I didn't know I needed to tend to my own wounds
and heal my sores in order to see it was not him I needed,
All I needed was me, to set myself free
