All I needed was me
His words pierce through me
As does a knife through a beating heart
He knows how to anger and hurt me
so deeply, no other words ever could
The pain of those words chip away at me
I did not ask to be born of the flesh that I did
It isn't my fault who my mother was
Why must I always pay for her dislike
Why must I always be compared to her life
She wasn't me and I am not her
But his words want me to believe I am just like her
And those enunciations toil with my soul
They take me to this deep dark place
I never want to see
They take me to the deepest side of me
The one where the little girl is sitting
and still feels pain for all her past
It is for me like an open scar
That he keeps on cutting into, trying to re-open the closed wound
I thought he would free me with his love
I didn't know I didn't need him for that
I didn't know I needed to tend to my own wounds
and heal my sores in order to see it was not him I needed,
All I needed was me, to set myself free
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Hi Barbara,
All I can say is...YES!
I feel you on so many...many levels! Excellent Hub. The Greatest Love of All is Love of Self! If you can't love/accept yourself, then you can't extend either to another.
It's a tragedy when lack of self worth/love/self image/self esteem allows negative people to try and infect us with their sicknesses. It's even worse when said people masquerade as your "greatest champion" to later show their true colors. Then, you struggle with your inner-demons and theirs.
My only advice is to add a picture/video to split of your words a bit. It seems Hubpages favor Hubs with relevant features to compliment your work.
Great read...though sad.
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