After the Glow Faded Away
Heather has a Bachelor's Degree in English from Moravian College and has been freelance writing for more than 13 years.
First time experiences have a powerful hold on you
Taking away rationality and replacing it with wide eyed joy
Seeing everything through rose colored glasses so large
Ignoring all the cracks in the pavement and the foundation
Ended up suffering the aftershocks once it all fell apart
Thought that I was stronger and on the right path alone
Tripped over my own denial and extreme belief in moving forward
Frozen in what was left of everything that thawed into mush
Frustrated that the past still had some kind of thought process
Forced to reconcile the fact that those glasses hid a lot
More than it made the world seem much rosier than it was
Afraid to express myself for fear of getting burned again
Hard to trust my own once solid instincts in the aftermath
Know that I'm better off walking on the yellow brick road alone
No one holding me back or forcing me to diminish my pride
Wondered what life would be like every so often
When the dust has settled completely into the ground
Letting all the hurt, anger and sadness fall into the ether
No longer ruminating about past transgressions and betrayals
Tired of hanging onto subjects that should no longer matter
Everyone is different when it comes to moving on
Have been told that repeatedly and others have made suggestions
To just stop rehashing the past; since it will never change
Not that I would want it to; what's done is done
Stuck in traction with the recent world events grinding almost everything
To a screeching halt and burying what was once considered normal
Putting into cold storage as we circle around a new, more chaotic version
Wondered when I would get the opportunity to truly spread my wings
Literally focusing on the next step every quarter of a mile
All that can be done until some sense of normalcy entered the fold again
Fingers crossed that it happens sooner rather than later
No more original television programming to keep the wolves at bay.