Heather has a Bachelor's Degree in English from Moravian College and has been freelance writing for more than 12 years.
Paid the ultimate price in being the diligent worker bee
Tried to make up for some lack of who knows what
Ended up burning the candle at both ends
All the way down to the nub and felt the strong afteraffects
Made myself sick from working endless hours
That was ultimately my undoing after all
I chose to work for almost two weeks straight with no days off
Wore my resistance down to the point where I got really sick
Also, didn't help that I didn't remember that the medication
Gave me a bad reaction the last time I took it
Hated the idea of feeling useless and calling out sick for a whole week
Couldn't function in an upright position for very long
Energy depleted to the point where cabin fever started to set in
Old anxieties from before started to come back
Was able to keep them at bay when finally ended up on the mend
Forced to think about myself for once and not painful memories
Of the man who broke my heart four months ago
Getting close to the idea of making plans to getting back out there
Hesitant to do so because afraid to repeat any potential mistakes
Such as how honest should I be with my future partner
Thought my straight forward nature would win out
Turns out it scared the last suitor away
But it also was doomed to fail due to our differing goals
I had plenty and he had none
Lousy to think that such a long term investment imploded
Like it did, but it is what it is
Cannot change the past, or even erase the sting of their actions
Just need to learn how to be myself in a relationship
Not settle for less and move forward in a manner
That works out for both parties involved
A business partnership of sorts of the dating variety
Searching for meaning by breaking out of this mole hole
Locked myself into for far too long
Surely, they've not given this much thought about me
Look at how they took the coward's approach in ending things
Time to close the door, lock it and throw away the key
Better safe to not look back
Nothing good would ever come from it anyways.
BRENDA ARLEDGE from Washington Court House on January 25, 2020:
It is hard to get back out there. Do not listen to anyone else.
You will know when the time is right. I cannot even imagine doing this yet, especially with the type of men out there.
I think I forgot how to date. I long for the someone to know me from inside out ...but Right now I am taking care of myself.
Getting to know me again. Doing things I put on the back burner, following my dreams with alot of sleepless nights.
Don't beat yourself up. You will get there when you are supposed too.