A Talk to God
TaJuan is an aspiring writer hoping to gain experience and growth through publishing passionate works, like this one, online for the world.
God, tell me what you want from me
Lately, life has been out for me
These bad dreams been haunting me
Ghosts from my past
They’ve come for me
I guess misery requires company
Done are these happy days
Where I would just wish away
About a future where I could say
My writings are on display
And millions of people had laid
Their eyes on them and have changed
Their perspective and how they live
All of that is what I wish to give
But sadly that seems beyond my reach
The words of hope I always preach
Have fallen to deaf ears
Cause I’ve been leeched
Of all of my creativity
By this hellish society
Who happily took the liberty
Of sapping me of my liberty
To think and do as I please
But rather
I am being squeezed
To the last of my “worth”
For they don’t care about this verse
But the amount of hours I can work
At this dead end job
Being a cog
In a system I despise
God, can’t You hear my cries
Why oh why
Do I even try
To fight
My dreams
Out of sight
Thoughts too dark
God, bring the light
Bring something
To assist my plight
Back to the top
This grind I cannot stop
My writings will one day pop
Off
I know it
You know it
Because it’s all apart of Your plan
Right?
You’re supposedly the Man
Right?
You’re supposed to have my back
Right?
But happiness is the one thing I lack
Might
I add
Big Man Above the Clouds
This constant suffering should not be allowed
For me, or any of us
This is tragic
Am I really supposed to sit back and watch the magic
Unfold
Do what I’m told
By You
Repent at the end
And land
In the Garden
That’s the bargain?
Well, I’ll pass
Cause I’m going to nirvana
Not some wannabe
Paradise
Which is ran by a Force who couldn’t give a damn about me
Because
Where were You when I needed a sign
Where were You during my darkest times
Where were You when I lost my mind
And I couldn’t find
My way out of the dark
Why does my arm have these marks
And I’m not talking about my tats
When my fears and depression was at its max
What did You do?
Just reclined and relaxed?
Matter of fact
What exactly
Have You done for me
Honestly
And yeah
Who am I
Questioning You
But You’re the one who made me with trust issues
So don’t play me like a lame
I can no longer entertain
You’ve brought me all of this pain
These problems
You’re to blame
My anger has been inflamed
My hatred can not be tamed
This relationship I am through
That’s right
I Hate You
But after all of this
I still capitalize Your name.
