A Poem: Lost Thoughts Buried Deep

Updated on September 20, 2019
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With the darkest of my thoughts transferred to written words at times I can see the light.

Lost to Alzheimer's
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Lost Thoughts Buried Deep

I sit alone;

surrounded by darkness

submerged in my own psyche

searching for lost thoughts;

buried deep,

amid uninvited shadows

that lurk inside my head.

I stare through the charcoal molecules

dancing before my eyes

a monstrous vacuum...

I know there is nothing to see;

nothing at all.

I listen to the forlorn stillness

a sepulchral silence

envelopes me

I know there is nothing to hear;

nothing at all.

I reach deeper;

inside my expiring brain

scavenging for what I once knew

in a disappearing mindless pool

that was once my memory.

There is nothing...

in this ebony pitt...

nothing at all.

My mind is void;

a vacant hollow;

my thoughts lost in a sea of grey

a swirling mass of memories

absent;

gone a stray.

A malady of parasites

have found my thoughts

the leeches won't let go;

filthy toothed creatures

I feel them slowly gnawing

on all that I once knew.

Obscurity steals through my head

a dark and evil fiend

all is left to float forever

abandoned to an abyss

a forgotten mind of memories

and lost thoughts admist

an intellect of dying cells

finally suppressed.

I sit alone; in the darkness

forsaken and forlorn

within this desolate chasm

of lost thoughts

and emptiness

engulfed by isolation;

an eternal limbo

now my home.


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Author's Note

Alzheimer's is a horrible disease, coveting without mercy. Alzheimer's can be a silent monster lurking in the shadows for quite some time before finally deciding to pounce; creeping among the grey; steeling memories and thoughts; memories of special moments and thoughts of those most dearest. Sucking everything from the mind, leaving nothing but a shell: an empty, lonely lost, shell.

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      • Gabriel Wilson profile imageAUTHOR

        Gabriel Wilson 

        7 years ago from Madeira, Portugal

        Thank you for your time Ama Tainted; glad to meet you.

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        Amanda 

        7 years ago from Texas

        your vocabulary is astonishing! you write with a style and grace of another time when words were not so simplistic. the diction, in itself, is an artform...

        voted up and beautiful.

      • Gabriel Wilson profile imageAUTHOR

        Gabriel Wilson 

        8 years ago from Madeira, Portugal

        Escaping society my friend is not the same as being ejected from it. Thank you for reading and for your comment, I appreciate your words and your time.

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        ugofiguhritout 

        8 years ago

        Awsome poetry it is me and how wonderful it must be to escape society for i feel its a large part that creates those thoughts.

      • Gabriel Wilson profile imageAUTHOR

        Gabriel Wilson 

        8 years ago from Madeira, Portugal

        Yes! I now believe he was :)

      • Happyboomernurse profile image

        Gail Sobotkin 

        8 years ago from South Carolina

        Perhaps he was lost somewhere beautiful.

      • Gabriel Wilson profile imageAUTHOR

        Gabriel Wilson 

        8 years ago from Madeira, Portugal

        Hi Happyboomernurse.

        I wrote this poem in memory of an old man. He had the bluest eyes and the warmest heart. When I looked into his eyes; the blueness I once knew was still there, but the rest of him seemed to be ebbing; wondering; lost. I always hoped he was lost somewhere beautiful.

        All I saw... well... you know that already: you read the poem. I saw nothing; nothing at all.

        Alzheimer's: a malady of parasites.

        Thank you for your words.

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        Gail Sobotkin 

        8 years ago from South Carolina

        I think my nursing background affected my interpretation of this poem because I saw it as how a person suffering from Alzheimer's might feel, sitting alone in a corner of a nursing home.

        Powerful poem no matter how you interpret it. Thanks for sharing.

      • Gabriel Wilson profile imageAUTHOR

        Gabriel Wilson 

        8 years ago from Madeira, Portugal

        Thank you for your time innoialifa. Your comment is very much appreciated :)

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        innoialifa 

        8 years ago from Ibadan

        Well -expressed sentiments,keep on beautifying the world with your poems...

      • Gabriel Wilson profile imageAUTHOR

        Gabriel Wilson 

        8 years ago from Madeira, Portugal

        Tanx for reading jami I. pereira :)

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        jami l. pereira 

        8 years ago

        Great write , thanks for sharing!

      • Gabriel Wilson profile imageAUTHOR

        Gabriel Wilson 

        8 years ago from Madeira, Portugal

        Hi carol3san. Tanx for taking the time to read. I took that photo a couple of years ago; it's one of my favorite.

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        Carolyn Sands 

        8 years ago from Hollywood Florida

        Thanks for the poem. It is very well written and is also a good read. The picture of the dark clouds is very effective.

      • Gabriel Wilson profile imageAUTHOR

        Gabriel Wilson 

        8 years ago from Madeira, Portugal

        Welcome to HubPages therogoddess!

        Tanx for popping in; I appreciate your time and your comments.

        Best of luck with your writing :)

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        therogoddess 

        8 years ago

        WOW...EXCELLENT CHOICE OF WORDS..IAM NEW HERE BUT OUT OF ALL IVE READ YOUR WRITINGS ARE GREAT..KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK..NOW I KNOW SOMEONE IN PORTUGAL...ALTHOUGH I LIVE IN CHICAGO ILLINOIS, AN WE ARE A MILLION MILES AWAY, I CONNECT WITH YOU THROUGH YOUR WRITINGS GOOD JOB.

      • Gabriel Wilson profile imageAUTHOR

        Gabriel Wilson 

        8 years ago from Madeira, Portugal

        Tanx for reading fashion :)

      • Gabriel Wilson profile imageAUTHOR

        Gabriel Wilson 

        8 years ago from Madeira, Portugal

        The people are still as good hearted. I often come home to fresh bread hanging on my door or vegetables fresh from the ground. The city has grown but there are still many rural spots.

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        fashion 

        8 years ago

        Very interesting and well written poem.

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        Joyce Haragsim 

        8 years ago from Southern Nevada

        Tell me is Portugal still as pretty as it was back in the 70's and are the people still as good hearted.

      • Gabriel Wilson profile imageAUTHOR

        Gabriel Wilson 

        8 years ago from Madeira, Portugal

        Ah! writer20 so do I. Thank you :)

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        Joyce Haragsim 

        8 years ago from Southern Nevada

        I'm close to your words, your poem is very interesting.

        Here's hopefully our brain cells stays with us for the coming years.

      • Gabriel Wilson profile imageAUTHOR

        Gabriel Wilson 

        8 years ago from Madeira, Portugal

        Hi AliciaC. I love that you got the photo :) So glad you dropped by, tanx.

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        Linda Crampton 

        8 years ago from British Columbia, Canada

        I love your poem! It contains vivid images and the photo contributes so well to the mood and theme of the poem. Voted beautiful.

      • Gabriel Wilson profile imageAUTHOR

        Gabriel Wilson 

        8 years ago from Madeira, Portugal

        I sometimes wonder how honest we all are about our state of mind. But I'd like to think you're right; everyone and anyone can feel like this at some time.

        Tanx for your time and your comment :)

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        sonia05 

        8 years ago from india

        very interesting and great choice of words!!This state of mind is true for everyone and anyone at some point of life! Lost in thought or lost thoughts haunt the mind and uncertainty dwells for quite sometime!!

        voted up!

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