A Passerby, Are You Not?
Hyn Edwit is a university student. He wrote this piece after finally (but with difficulty) got up and walked the track.
Did this idea ever occur to you?
That self-pity is
an excruciating comfort
I indulge myself in, so often
that tears became elusive entities
as I plead for a materialization
of what I'm actually going through
A proof, an evidence of the holes within me
Yes. I'm suffering, all this time...
Had this thought ever occurred to you?
Everytime you laugh and tell
stereotypical dialogues you're
designed to say is
how frequent I put up
the pretense of comfort washing
over my face...
As my trembling hands should tell you otherwise
And, did this picture ever occurred to you?
That I tried to let go of
life once, twice, thrice... countless
times but ended up not doing it
'cause even I'm afraid of death,
even I have dreams and fantasies,
even I know how precious life is,
even I wanted to believe in you
in society, in love, in family, in friends
in... me
It never occurred to me how
oblivious you are when I'm here
desperately pleading for help
Ah... wait, it did occur to me
that even after you read this
you'd never even think of me
My pitiful cry from merely
a string of words
that'll be forgotten
and will dwindle
in just a few moments
as I helplessly watch
you all just
passing by
© 2020 Hyn Edwit
