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A Little More Thankful With Each Step

Looking Forward

There is no better time than now

To count all my lucky stars

I am truely blessed

There are so many things that I don't have

That is just fine with me

I just recently got a quick reminder

What you have today

Is no guarantee

We like to listen to our ego and give so many reasons in our mind

How hard we have worked

Why we deserve all that we have

My dumb knee is a quick reminder

I was carrying my collapsable lawn mower in the cellar

Down the bulkhead stairs

It is heavy

One step at a time

Careful not to slip

There is little room for error

The mower weighs a ton

As soon as I was done

I felt a soreness in my right knee

That I have never felt before

My right knee began to buckle

I began to hobble instead of walk

The inside is tender

I keep thinking I just twisted it

This is how one moment

Changes everything

I tried to walk it off for the rest of the day

Everything I do

What before was the simplest routine

Now is a painful reminder

I rub my knee

Now is the right time

To pray

I was too busy to do it before

So many things in my life

All took first priority

There is no time to point the finger

I have to wait

Then see if it gets better

I can quickly find fault

It's my bum knee to blame

I ran track for three years in high school

I never had an injury

Why should it give me trouble now?

I do remember

How other runners suffered so

I never had an issue

I know I was so happy but I also felt guilty

Each runner is no different than me

We all did the same workouts

Each day pounding the pavement

Trying to push ourselves to the limit

After high school

I decided to stop running

Realizing how long can I keep pressing my luck

If something happens

When my knees start giving me trouble

I have to go to work

Earn a living

This is my career

I am on my feet every day

It's my job

It is my lively hood

The risk is too high for me

I enjoyed running and all the races I ran

While I did it

Now I walk

That puts less stress on each joint and muscle

It is the best way to go

I often dreamed of returning back to running

Now I realize

How quickly we forget

We keep changing our minds all the time

That is what people do

I sit here

Moving my right knee

Ever so slowly

Thinking it will just go away

Then I can forget this point in my life

Completely erase this moment from my mind

I have no answers

I have done things that I think will work

Elevate it

Prop it up on some pillows

Ice it for ten minutes

When I tried to go to sleep

I was so uncomfortable

I normally sleep on my side

Now my only option

Was flat on my back

So instead of starting my own pitty party

I decided to find the good in the bad

So many times in my life

I never gave my knees a second thought

Like all my other body parts

I forgot them all

I put them on the back burner

They work so well together

I was off dreaming

How to conquer the world

Now I see how silly that may be

Instead of enjoying each second that makes up my day

I am no different

Then so many other people in the world

I want more, more, more

Well, this is reflection time

You always find time to miss something when it is gone

Hopefully, my body will rise to the occasion

Healing itself slowly over time

For now, I have to walk with a limp

If this persists

I will have to see the doctor

Now I am very uneasy

Restless to say the least

Even sitting becomes a real tear-jerker

I will end it here

Now is a good time as any

To start counting my blessings

Like they are numbers on a number line

That brings me back to my childhood

When I was in math class

Learning and wondering

Will, I ever use what the teacher is talking about?

Numbers go on to infinity

I am positive

Blessings go even farther

Can you name the cartoon character?

That tried to give us a hint

Maybe we heard it

Maybe we thought for one second

It is only a kids movie

The line is so perfect

From infinity and beyond

P.S.

Even after I wrote this

My mind is trying very hard

To find the answers

I bought a large knee brace

To see if pampering my knee might work

Maybe that will do the trick

Talk to it

As if it had a mind of it's own

In a last-ditch effort

To make what is wrong right

Aren't they just silly excuses?

That my mind conjure up





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