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A List For Love

I'm not looking to be turned into somebody's dream
But if you want me to I'll listen to what you mean
If you've reached the time where life must go your way
I'm not sure if I'll fit, I'm not sure you'll let me stay

They say we should always compromise
Perfection doesn't always get its way
If it's perfect we will always have a good day
It doesn't have to be the same as yesterday

That's quite a long list of things to make you happy
You said you can wear your jeans or go out looking fancy
Maybe you're hoping two or three will turn my hat your way
I have a long list too but I'd rather just throw it away

They say there's always one out there for you
I can think of a few times when I thought that was true
I don't want to lay all that pressure by your side
Let's be who we are, nobody will ever say somebody lied

Throwing my list away
Throwing my list away
It's better to listen to you
Than write my list for love today

Comments

Elijah A Alexander Jr from Washington, DC USA on November 19, 2018:

Your closing statement, Mark, is why Solomon meant "in all of your getting, get understanding" but in that light, what is required to get understanding? To not be judgmental and it is because we more judgmental adjectives than we do descriptive adjectives is why we are emotional. If we only used disruptive adjectives and left alone judging - as Adam was told would kill us and is why we need to be "born again" like a tadpole becoming a frog - our emotions would be under control automatically. That has been my experiences anyway.

Mark Lecuona (author) from Austin, Texas on November 19, 2018:

@Elijah - I like the "to be reviewed" file. It sounds like something I read from a book called, "The Christian Agnostic." The author, Leslie Weatherhead, said he didn't get hung up on parts of the Bible that seemed confusing or possibly difficult to believe. He described these things as, "Awaiting further light" and "It may be so, I do not know." He wasn't taking it as all or nothing in terms of comprehension. Faith built good bridges for him.

Objectively observing life is very difficult as it requires control of our emotions. I try VERY HARD to find the truth no matter where it may fall. But that doesn't mean I'm cold blooded or a being of total logic such as Spock on Star Trek. But I don't want to be rushed along by the emotion of another person who may be misguided or by my own emotions which may be based upon the errors of my teachers or my own weaknesses such as pride and ego.

Elijah A Alexander Jr from Washington, DC USA on September 20, 2018:

Really, Mark, I'm only a philosophy - lover of wisdom - but to love wisdom and not seek to interest others in what one's objectivity has revealed to them all of one's work is in vain. I hate the idea of writing but it's today's primary means of communicating. Most people forget what was said shortly after ending the conversation while, when it has wisdom in it, I put it into my mental "to be reviewed file" for the time I have nothing else to do so I can break down the conversation piece by piece and reconstruct it to eliminate the doss.

Your last statement says it all, "the purpose for life is seek the comprehension of our being through objectively observing experiences" therefore that is life.

Mark Lecuona (author) from Austin, Texas on September 20, 2018:

I seldom feel lonely if at all. I'm not even sure what that feels like anymore. I have plenty of human contact at work and I have an active and outgoing personality so I'm in constant interaction with people at restaurants (my kids are always amazed when the wait staff at my favorite restaurants call me by my name and talk; I tell them, "They're people too! They're not just here to serve and act like robots for us to push around."

And I suspect that you are very similar to me in one very important regard; we are writers who are constantly thinking about life and how we might express our next thought or idea. I'm very inwardly focused in that way and it is a constant source of interest to me. So I don't even notice that I'm sitting alone because I've had my contact with the world during the day and the night becomes my canvas so to speak. I get bored at times. No doubt but luckily I also play the piano so I'll go in there and practice and try to develop my sense of the instrument itself to a greater extent.

In short; what we both have is what some people tell others to get: A life.

Elijah A Alexander Jr from Washington DC on September 16, 2018:

Those are the words I live, "I'm alone but not lonely." By being content with how I am I seldom ever acknowledge a girl's appearance as my findings are appearances deceives us more than knowing their personality, a magnificent personality will win me as a friend but looks at one time would grabbed at my lust.

Mark Lecuona (author) from Austin, Texas on September 16, 2018:

:)

It doesn't offend me. I understand where you are coming from. The women I know would say, "free milk and the cow" or "having my cake and eating it too." I suppose it's tough for most folks to share their intimates with another. Jealousy is a very powerful emotion. People want to feel whole when they love.

At the same time it seems at our age we should be able to evolve into a progressive mind-set; able to control our emotions and in doing so not controlling theirs. I'm not sure I've achieved that state of mind at this point. So I remain suspended in a place of strength; alone, but not lonely.

Elijah A Alexander Jr from Washington DC on September 15, 2018:

Mark, I'm only a twice divorced 73-year-old and my first wife and I participated in "My Proposal" which was written after becoming the nomad I am, although there was one thing that prohibited our staying together. I also practiced it with my second wife who felt the same basically but my destiny to become a nomad prohibited our remains together. It goes...

I want to be your lover and desire you as mine

but not to be each other's puppet nor control their mind.

I want to be your friend to last all our life

but not me a henpecked husband nor you a rooster-spurred wife.

I want to love you with a love true, one that makes you free,

so your friends can enjoy you and mine can enjoy me.

I want to know I'm in your heart when you aren't around,

that it's said with love when you say to me "be not found".

I want your love to be so real you'll not say it's only for me,

that it be so when we're with someone else there'll be no jealousy.

I want not to rule your life nor for you to rule me,

my joy is all I ask, and the same I ask for thee.

So if you'll love me this way, this way that I love you,

with our loving each other free we'll know our love is true!

Any girl willing to live that can marry this old boy as her husband. I've had several who accepted it verbally but to live it only one could and is expected to become my "help meet" in our positions of destiny.

You can use it so long as you let them know where you got it and weed out those who can't. It is "I want not to rule your life nor for you to rule me / my joy is all I ask, and the same I ask for thee" that they have trouble with, the rest they seem to approve of.

Thanks for not being offended, there are some who would have been.

Mark Lecuona (author) from Austin, Texas on September 14, 2018:

Thank you Elija. I always appreciate it when someone responds to what I write with some prose/poetry of their own. That's a bond you don't always achieve.

I'm 60 years old. Twice divorced. Pretty cynical. I love to look at a beautiful woman but then I'm reminded of the terrible control issues I've endured. I'm too old for that anymore. How do you know if they're reasonable people who just want a nice easy life with a companion?

I like your poem.

Elijah A Alexander Jr from Washington DC on September 13, 2018:

Very well said in the needed composition for getting the message across. I enjoyed the concepts and how it reads. Thanks for sharing it.

Traditional love is not for me anymore, been there, done that. Today "My Proposal" is my list summed up in the two words "loving free".

I want to be your lover and desire you as mine

but not to be each other's puppet nor control their mind.

I want to be your friend to last all our life

but not me a henpecked husband nor you a rooster-spurred wife.

I want to love you with a love true, one that makes you free,

so your friends can enjoy you and mine can enjoy me.

I want to know I'm in your heart when you aren't around,

that it's said with love when you say to me "be not found".

I want your love to be so real you'll not say it's only for me,

that it be so when we're with someone else there'll be no jealousy.

I want not to rule your life nor for you to rule me,

my joy is all I ask, and the same I ask for thee.

So if you'll love me this way, this way that I love you,

with our loving each other free we'll know our love is true!

Peace.