6 Things I Wish I Could Say
Emma Lipinski
1/06/2020
6 Things I Wish I Could Say to the People Who Gave up on Me
- I’m sorry.
I tried to be good enough this time,
But I guess I came up short
I’m sorry that my pain and insecurities were too much for you to handle
I am sorry to myself,
That I thought you could
I never meant to be a burden.
I am sorry if I was.
But most of all I’m sorry that I gave you the power to make me say that I am sorry.
- You hurt me.
Whether you meant to or not,
You hurt me.
I have been broken,
Crushed,
Stepped on,
Run over.
I trusted you with all of my heart and now
I know that was a mistake.
I should be used to this
But I am not.
Your giving up,
Your leaving,
Only added to my scars
And hurt me yet another time.
- I miss you.
You were a big influence in my life,
Obviously you were because I still think about you
And what you did,
And what you said,
And that you left.
Without you everything is different.
Whether it is you or the consistency I miss,
I do not know.
I do know that what they say is true,
You can miss something and not want it back.
- I forgive you.
I will not forget.
You can run me once, but I will never let it happen twice.
Some of us may start again,
And some of us will not
But either way,
it will never be the same
- Thank you.
for telling me that I was not good enough,
That I could not achieve,
That I would not make it.
Thank you,
For leaving me and teaching me that I deserve so much more.
It is because of you that I am motivated,
Strong,
Resilient,
Where I am today.
- I wish you could see me now.
© 2020 Emma Lipinski