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Why It Is so Difficult to Write

Why Does This Article Exist?

I've recently made attempts to get into writing stuff again. Doesn't matter too much what I write as long as I enjoy doing it and am satisfied with the result afterward. Now, if I can earn a buck or two at the same time, I won't refuse, but it has never been the primary motivation behind my writing.

But every time I sit down and think to myself: "Okay, Benny. Now's the time. Write!", I find myself at a complete loss. What do I write about? I've been a member of HubPages for around 2 years now, I believe and the number of published articles I have written does not reflect this. Their subject-matter probably seems quite random when glancing over my profile. I am deeply aware of this.

I dislike using plain photos without much meaning, but a wall of text is worse.

I dislike using plain photos without much meaning, but a wall of text is worse.

Relevancy in Writing

I believe the issue, for me, at least, lies with the underlying motivation for writing in the first place. I hold myself and the products of my imagination to a very high standard. The articles I occasionally write are no exception.

I want my articles to be relevant and useful. I'm concerned with not filling them with too much text, but not too little either. Is my point getting across or have I gotten stuck in a loop and lost the point entirely?

I have no intention nor desire to be a blogger, talking about my favorite childhood memories, and what I had for lunch two days ago. I might be confusing the concept of blogging and vlogging here, but I believe my example still makes sense. I mean no offense to people who enjoy doing this, it just isn't for me.

The issue with relevancy haunts me. I want to be relevant. I believe everyone does. So what do you do? Well, you just write something currently relevant to a country, or the world, or some other entity, don't you?

At the time of writing this, I believe there's an asteroid with a 0.41% chance of hitting Earth at some point. Write about that. That's relevant, right? It is, but not in the way I want it to be. I don't want to write about an asteroid, who gives a damn? (Don't get me wrong, a lot of people do give a damn)

Interest in a subject is crucial. Sadly, my interests rarely match those of the majority and so here we are. And it doesn't even end there.

The Personal Aspect of Writing

Okay, let's say I actually get something written. Take this very article as an example. What I've written here is mostly my opinion and feelings on the subject of writing, and trust me, this isn't the first time I've done something like this. However, all other examples were never published, simply because I ended up deciding against it at the last minute.

When a piece of writing, in this case, an article, becomes too real, meaning I personally connect with my own words, I get scared. Because voicing one's concerns, opinions and issues aren't easy.

In the process of writing this very article, I've realized something very important. Connecting with your writing is the very point of doing it. This seems obvious in retrospect, but have been difficult to accept along the way, and might have been what has stopped me from publishing other pieces like this. Articles that were relevant to me and maybe not to someone else (unless that someone else has an unnatural, almost sinister, obsession with the inner workings of my mind).

While I do want to write something that someone will actually want to read, pursuing that is where I, and possibly you (or your neighbor, or coworker, who knows) go wrong. It's not about the readers. Unless you're writing commercially, which in that case, it's definitely about the readers and their sweet, sweet money.

And I suppose that I write commercially as well, in a way, but as I stated earlier, that's just an added bonus to me.

This Is Why Writing Is So Difficult!

Writing is difficult because it's a personal process. You may end up finding yourself through it, and perhaps that self is not who you expected, or maybe you just weren't ready for such a confrontation.

Now, I realize that everything I've been claiming here might sound like complete bullshit, and perhaps it is to some. This is what writing is to me and possibly some of you as well, and no one can change that.

I'd like to leave you, my dear reader, hoping that you've connected with my work as much as I have. I hope reading this has been an enlightening journey, just as it has been for me. If it hasn't, I'm sorry for wasting your time, but I think I personally needed this. Who knows, maybe you're in the same situation as me, trying to figure out what to write about, finding lists of different questions to use as a base for an article or blog post. Seeing no meaning in the process, but desperately searching nonetheless.

Thank you for being a part of this. Even if I'm technically saying this before you became a part of this. I might have said that readers don't matter, but I'm fairly certain that we as humans seek validation in what we do, and that's why I need you after all.

I suppose the bottom line and lesson to remember here is: your writing has to make sense to you, before worrying about whether it makes sense to others.

© 2020 Bennett Sloan

Comments

Bennett Sloan (author) on August 26, 2020:

Thank you for giving it a read, Riffat. I appreciate it!

Riffat Junaid from Pakistan on August 26, 2020:

You are right Bennett, writing is difficult some time. Nice article.

Bennett Sloan (author) on August 24, 2020:

I agree, it is indeed what makes it compelling. Exciting.

Thank you for giving my content a read, and I'm glad you enjoyed it!

Maria Giunta from Sydney, Australia on August 24, 2020:

Writing is difficult and personal, you're right Bennett. But isn't this what makes it compelling to write? Keep writing because the more you write the better a writer you become. Thanks for a good article, I enjoyed reading it.