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Why I Became a Christian in 2013, at the Age of Sixty-One

I'm a book blogger, the Book Lady at YouTube, and a novelist and memoir writer.

Jesus Loves Me

When I was a very young child, 7 or 8 years old, my grandmother sent me to Sunday School a couple of times. I loved Jesus for a short time, but forgot about him when I got older, and proceeded to become a rebellious hippie teenager in the San Francisco Bay Area in the 1960s, and that meant I was able to find a lot of trouble to get into.

One day I made a pact with a friend to cut school the next day to go to the Haight Ashbury District in San Francisco. I'd never been there on my own before, so this was a big deal for me. I was 15 and this took place on December 7, 1967. Yes, I still remember the date.

While I was there I got separated from my friend, and took a walk down Haight street to Golden Gate Park. There, I met a young man who totally led me astray intentionally. By the time he deserted me back on Haight Street hours later, it was dark and I was alone with crowds of people around me.

I finally wandered into a poster store and used the pay phone to call a friend. My friend's mother called my parents. My parents came to pick me up with the police, and my angry, nearly hysterical mother drove us back to the East Bay city of El Sobrante while my father tried to talk to me.

When I got home my friend and her mother were there and I sat in the living room talking to them. Her mother said, "When you grow up, you'll want to marry Mr. Clean."

I said, "No, when I grow up, I want to marry Jesus."

I was attracted to the hippie boys because they had long hair like Jesus did. Who wouldn't be?

The Haight Ashbury - where I hung out as a teenager (later I lived there - but that's another story.)

Haight-Ashbury District, San Francisco

Looking For the Truth

When I was seventeen a friend told me about his middle eastern religion, and encouraged me to look into it. I told him that I didn't believe in organized religion.

"That's okay," he said, "this religion is really disorganized!" (As it turned out the religion was extremely organized and legalistic, but I didn't know that at the time.)

I did look into the religion and became a member and was an active member for most of thirty years. This was the kind of religion that would pick and choose a few Bible verses to validate itself. I fell for that, and for the time I was in the religion I became rather adept at scanning the Bible for just the information I needed to try to prove my religion was right, especially to Christians. Somehow that never worked out well. (Now I know why.)

Unfortunately I had never actually read the Bible, and after about twenty-five years in that religious group, I decided I needed to know what the Bible said. I wanted to read it all the way through.

Our religion claimed the Bible was at least partially true, but obsolete and corrupted, and they never encouraged believers to actually read it... so I was on my own in this project, and decided to read the New Testament first. I managed to read through most of that (some books twice) and then started reading the first books in the Old Testament.

I got all the way through the book of Joshua, and then a huge life change happened - I decided to move myself and two young children from the San Francisco Bay Area into the mountains of Northern California.

We settled in a small town 20 miles south of the Oregon border, and at about the same time, I dropped out of my religion. I was just burnt out on it because it didn't provide enough love and support. I'd been told to expect mass conversions by the year 2000 and they didn't happen, and I finally realized they never would. Some very traumatic things had happened to me concerning some of the other members, and I found many members to be very judgmental. Furthermore, the laws were voluminous (literally) and way too strict for me. I was distressed and feeling guilty and hopeless because I was trying to obey those laws but always failing. So... I quit.

I had two boyfriends while I lived in the forest. The first one was a Christian who didn't act like one. He made up his own rules, was not in fellowship with other Christians, and he had some severe medical problems: type 1 diabetes, and schizophrenia. I did get along with him well, however, and so this relationship lasted six years. I finally had to break up with him because he was spending most of every day with my neighbors smoking marijuana and spending a lot of his money there.

I then had another boyfriend, and that relationship started as the most treasured experience of my life and ended as the worst. I was initially attracted to him because we both shared a desire to find spiritual truth, and during our relationship we explored multiple paths to enlightenment, for example, meditation in the pyramid on Mt. Shasta, and listening to Eckhart Tolle videos and reading his books.

My boyfriend showed all the symptoms of being a narcissist, but at the time I didn't know what a narcissist was. As narcissists are prone to do, he talked me into this relationship by promising to be the answer to all my needs and desires. He was going to help me edit my books, take me hiking in the Marble Mountain Wilderness Area so I could do research there for one of my novels, and he promised to be my Bigfoot research partner. (I lived in a tiny mountain community and Bigfoot was and is an issue there.)

Well, all those things he promised: none of that happened. It didn't take long for the relationship to start falling apart but I let him stay, living in a van on the property I rented, because he had no income. I pretty much supported him through the seven years he lived there, paying all the rent and utilities. He got food stamps so at least I didn't have to pay for that.

At the same time, he was extremely controlling and was constantly attacking me verbally with numerous criticisms - and sometimes his diatribes lasted well over an hour. It was hard to take. He was a Catholic (sort of in name only though he said the Lord's Prayer and Hail Mary every day) and he believed he was inhabited by a demon that he could never get rid of. I knew that before I allowed him to move onto the property (red flag!) but ignored the information because at the time I didn't believe demons really existed (that's what my former religion had taught me - that Satan wasn't anything more than human ego.)

In retrospect I can see that there really was a demon, that he was unsaved (or the demon would have been removed by Jesus), and that he was actually a minion of Satan whose influence on my life was to make life such a living hell for me that I'd have to find and return to God. That worked just fine, and I thank him for making my life so bad I eventually was ready to be saved.

While trying to recover from the shock of one of his numerous vicious verbal attacks, one day early in 2013, I started praying for help to get out of the relationship. I felt that I just couldn't take it anymore. I thought I heard someone in the spirit realm say, "Are you serious about this?" And I answered, "Yes, I need out of this relationship!"

On the day that we were packing a U-Haul truck to move out of the small town - we were going to Idaho - he got angry at me for making too much noise while he was trying to rest, and threatened to burn down the house with me in it if I ever mentioned my son again. He was very antagonistic toward my son. They'd had an argument and he was unable to forgive.

While I was still reeling from the shock of having him threaten to kill me, even telling me how he was going to do it, he then started bullying me into getting the pink slip for my car and signing it over to him. I did as he asked, and then told him he could have the car but he couldn't have me. After a huge scene he finally agreed to get his things out of the house and U-Haul truck, and leave. This was a self-preservation move on my part; I'd had enough of his mouth and emotional abuse, and didn't want to have anything more to do with someone who was thinking up creative ways to kill me!

Thus I had to clean up the house and property by myself. I nearly died of heat exhaustion while doing that. Seriously - it was bad and in the end I could barely walk. And when I finally did make the drive to Idaho with the U-Haul, I had the clear impression that it felt like the Exodus - the flight of the Israelites out of Egypt.

My prayer painting. I started this before I left my home in the forest and finished it here in Idaho.

"The Prayer"

"The Prayer"

The sign at the border crossing into Idaho.

The sign at the border crossing into Idaho.

Welcome to Idaho

I came to Idaho without a vehicle. Before leaving the small town in the Klamath National Forest, I had to give my van to my son because it had mechanical problems I couldn't handle, and I gave the car to my ex-boyfriend... so that left me with nothing.

When I got here I wasn't prepared for the heatwave and the amount of walking I had to do. I was in serious foot pain before long. It was awful.

Added to that was the surprise problem... that the apartment I'd rented was two and a half miles from the nearest bus stop. The bus route I thought was going to be there had been eliminated due to funding cuts. So I had to walk two and a half miles just to get to town or to the closest grocery store.

I was coming home from town on July 9, 2013, nine days after I arrived in Idaho, and half-way home I ran out of water, and was again getting heat exhaustion and was feeling very weak. About that time I looked up and saw a building with a sign on it that said "Coffee" and I realized it was a church with a coffeehouse in it. I decided I had to go in to see if they could fix me an iced coffee.

That was exactly what happened. I walked into a large room with lots of chairs and a bookstore off to one side. There was a counter and a nice young woman there fixed me a delicious iced mocha. I sat down and rested, and was so grateful for that coffee. I asked the woman if the church was formal or informal. "Oh, we're very informal," she said. "You can come as you are." I decided that the next Sunday, I would do so.

Despite her assurance that the people there would welcome informally dressed women, I got dressed up in an actual dress the next Sunday, and walked back to the church. I kept thinking, along the way, that my reasons for doing so were (1) to thank God for helping me get away from the scary man, and for helping me get settled in an outstandingly nice apartment, and to thank Him for all His blessings along the way; and (2) I wanted to be in a place where God was being worshiped. It didn't matter to me what kind of church or religion it was. I thought they were all pretty much the same, worshiping the same God. (I no longer believe that; now I think that religions without the Gospel of Salvation are missing the best part.)

Also, as I walked to church for the first time, I kept thinking that this might be the right day to give my life to Jesus. I felt so bereft and empty after the break up of my long-term relationship, I felt there was nothing left in the world for me. It felt to me a bit like a Middle Ages woman might feel about going into a convent after being in a bad relationship situation. I simply didn't want anything more from life but to serve God and to be sheltered by Him.

That's me, out walking. I tend to do that a lot.

I don't have a car so I walk a lot... fortunately I enjoy doing it.

I don't have a car so I walk a lot... fortunately I enjoy doing it.

Finding Jesus

I sat in the church and a nice man approached me to shake my hand. He introduced himself as "Bob." This man turned out to be the pastor of the church.

I was very interested in his sermon because he was teaching verse-by-verse from the Bible and that was something I very much appreciated. I wanted to learn about what the Bible actually said. There was also some nice music at the church (later I learned they called it a praise band) and to my surprise there was no altar call so I didn't have to go to the front of the church to give my life to Jesus... all that action took place inside my heart. It was July 14, 2013.

After that I started going to every service the church had... there were two weekday services, and sometimes I went to both of the Sunday services too although they were identical.

When I'd left my boyfriend, I had dead feelings toward him for several months. I honestly felt no sadness, only a relief at being away from the torment he put me through. But when one becomes a Christian, the Holy Spirit comes to live in your heart and it works to heal you in all ways. Part of that healing was facing the anger, the bitterness, the pain and heartache.

It says in the Bible that Jesus came to heal broken hearts... and my heart was definitely not only broken but torn to shreds. It is hard to imagine the pain of being attacked verbally and emotionally for nearly seven years by someone I loved deeply. The attacks were always so incomprehensible and uncalled for, and I couldn't understand his fault-finding and rage. I had a lot to heal from.

A few months after becoming a Christian I started attending a women's Bible study that, at that time, focused on a book about forgiveness. I learned that Jesus wants us to forgive all the people who have hurt us, and I started my own personal "forgiveness project" to forgive and get over all the pain that man had caused me.

I'm happy to say it worked. Today ... only a year later ... I am living in peace, enjoying living alone in a quiet apartment, enjoying life, and am emotionally stable and happy. No more roller coaster ride relationships for me!

Jesus is the greatest healer the world has ever known, and I'm glad I gave my life to Him.

Forgiveness Book

About Bible Versions...

This is the Bible I bought.

How to Study the Bible - this is a book review video I recently posted to my BookLady YouTube channel.

This is the book I reviewed in the video above

My Life as a Christian

I'm so happy I was saved! The Holy Spirit lives in my heart, healing me, helping me to be happy and joyful about living again.

I study the Bible every morning. It is a great way to start the day and everything seems to go better when I start with prayer and study of the Word of God.

I have lots of friends now - all Christians. I am so blessed.

Yes, it was a long road ... from being brought up in a family without any religious training ... then going through a series of religions and beliefs that looked for truth and God everywhere but in the Bible ... but I finally found salvation and the love of Jesus Christ, and my life has become so much better because of it.

I still don't have a car, but I'm over my anger about my ex taking my car, leaving me suffering and walking long distances for survival... I forgave, forgave, forgave until all the bitterness and unhappiness left me.

Now I think that living without a car is a good thing. I get lots of exercise walking and bike riding. I need that. I also get rides from friends sometimes, especially in the cold/icy/snowy Idaho wintertime. Everything is working out fine, and my needs are well taken care of.

Thank you, Jesus!

[Update: In 2017 I got another car. Definitely an answer to prayer.]

Thanks also to all the kind Christians who prayed for me over the course of my lifetime... especially my best friend, Judy, who lives in that small town I moved out of in 2013. She is a shining example of what a Christian should be... giving love and friendship to all kinds of people no matter how lost and deluded they are. She and her husband were praying for me to find a good church in Idaho, and although I originally had no intention of attending a Christian church, their prayers worked. Thank you! God is good.

This is a painting I did while I was recovering from the shock of losing my relationship.

My relationship with the man I loved, nailed to the cross.

My relationship with the man I loved, nailed to the cross.

© 2014 Linda Jo Martin

Comments

Catherine Tally from Los Angeles on October 03, 2017:

Hi Linda! I really enjoyed reading your testimony and am so happy for you that you have found your relationship w/Jesus. Being able to accept oneself as God does, to let go of the past, and to welcome each day in faith with a thankful heart brings such peace and contentment. Even when life brings difficulties we must trust in His wisdom and glorify Him. Thank you for sharing such a personal part of your life. God's blessings, Cat:)

Giovanna from UK on November 03, 2014:

I'm still looking! I do look everywhere but I can't seem to get the hang of all this. I love the way you write. Love it! Thanks for sharing your journey.

Linda Jo Martin (author) from Post Falls, Idaho, USA on October 02, 2014:

Thank you, TechyGran... I am so happy to meet you and grateful that you came to read my testimony.

Cynthia Zirkwitz from Vancouver Island, Canada on October 02, 2014:

Dear Linda, what a lovely find tonight just before I knock off to hit the hay... I am loving this Christian fellowship in Hubpages! And I agree with what Ken has to say above... I look forward to reading more of what you have to share. God bless you! ~Cynthia

Kenneth Avery from Hamilton, Alabama on September 30, 2014:

Linda,

You are very welcome and yes, I give Him the praise for your life. And just by creating this hub means that your faith has grown so much. I admire you for doing this. I admire you more for following Christ.

And . . .bless you for following me. I cherish all of my followers and that includes you, Linda.

God bless you in every way and stay in touch.

Linda Jo Martin (author) from Post Falls, Idaho, USA on September 30, 2014:

Thank you! I am humbled at your praise. I created this hub to be the first hub on this account because I want to put Christ, and my relationship with Him, first in everything. I am grateful to meet you here.

Kenneth Avery from Hamilton, Alabama on September 29, 2014:

Dear Linda,

I am so proud that you accepted, and following Christ. I am Christian too and I was so interested in your journey to Jesus. Amazing.

I really love this hub. And here are the reasons why:

1. This is an excellent piece of writing. Honestly, it is amazing.

2, I loved the way you worded this hub.

3. Graphics, superb.

4. This hub was helpful, informative and very interesting.

5. Voted Up and all of the choices.

6. I loved your topic of this hub.

You are certainly a gifted writer. Please keep up the fine work.

Sincerely,

Kenneth Avery, Hamilton, Alabama

Linda Jo Martin (author) from Post Falls, Idaho, USA on September 23, 2014:

Thanks so much, Dancergirl... I appreciate that. I feel truly fortunate that I was able to find Jesus and get His help to improve my life.

Amanda Dalton from Canada on September 23, 2014:

Wow you are truly an inspiration! Thank you for sharing your testimony and baring your soul. A book could be written on your life....thank you for commenting on my article, otherwise I would not have read your story. You've come through the fire and were victorious :) Praise the Lord

Linda Jo Martin (author) from Post Falls, Idaho, USA on September 18, 2014:

@teaches - In adversity, He responded to my needs, and helped me get away from a situation that was damaging me. He guided me to a place of safety and healed me. In these conditions it is easy to be faithful. Thanks for your comment.

Dianna Mendez on September 18, 2014:

Thank you for sharing your experiences and how they led you to make the decision to follow Christ. You certainly are a strong person to have gone through so much adversity to remain faithful. God bless you.

Linda Jo Martin (author) from Post Falls, Idaho, USA on September 16, 2014:

Nice idea, OhMe... I hadn't thought of that...

Nancy Tate Hellams from Pendleton, SC on September 16, 2014:

Thank you for sharing your testimony here. I really enjoyed reading it and I did read every word. Beautifully done! I hope you have plans to get this published in a magazine so many more can read it.

Linda Jo Martin (author) from Post Falls, Idaho, USA on September 14, 2014:

Thanks, Lisln... I'm glad you came by to read this page!

LorLinda from Denver Colorado on September 14, 2014:

What a beautiful testimony you are a brave woman. I loved your painting you are very artistic. Praise God!

Linda Jo Martin (author) from Post Falls, Idaho, USA on September 13, 2014:

Thank you, Efficient Admin... I am very happy to be part of the family!! Looking forward to heaven!! Perhaps we will meet there, face to face.

Michelle Dee from Charlotte, NC on September 13, 2014:

You have a very awesome and inspiring Testimony about the importance of forgiveness. Thank you for sharing and welcome to the family! We all need prayers to find genuine Fellowship and to be able to forgive and pray for our enemies in these times.

Linda Jo Martin (author) from Post Falls, Idaho, USA on September 06, 2014:

Thanks, CPAldridge... I am very grateful; this has made my life a lot better in many ways. Sorry only that it took me so long to figure it out.

Christy Aldridge from MS on September 06, 2014:

Thank you for sharing your testimony! I am so happy for you! I don't know how I would make it through life without Jesus and my Christian faith. I am so happy you found peace and joy in Christ!

Beverly Lemley from Raleigh, NC on September 04, 2014:

Funny! I found Him in Raleigh, NC!

Linda Jo Martin (author) from Post Falls, Idaho, USA on September 03, 2014:

Hilarious... I found Him in Post Falls, Idaho.

Rebecca Be from Lincoln, Nebraska on September 03, 2014:

Brie Hoffman,

You are cool. I took a chance. A couple of people told me they found him in prison. Then I got to thinking maybe we should say we found ourselves since he was never lost. Hmmm…not sure…

Brie Hoffman from Manhattan on September 03, 2014:

Funny!

Rebecca Be from Lincoln, Nebraska on September 03, 2014:

Brie Hoffman,

I did not know he was lost. Please forgive me I could not resist.

Linda Jo Martin (author) from Post Falls, Idaho, USA on September 03, 2014:

Yes, better late than never! Life without Him was a series of disappointments. Life with Him is beautiful. He is truly my Shepherd and His rod and staff comfort me.

Brie Hoffman from Manhattan on September 03, 2014:

I'm so happy you found Jesus..even if it was later in life.

Linda Jo Martin (author) from Post Falls, Idaho, USA on September 03, 2014:

Thanks so much, Ron, I truly appreciate you taking the time to read my testimony here on HubPages. Life has changed for the better since I became a Christian.

Ronald E Franklin from Mechanicsburg, PA on September 03, 2014:

Linda, what a great testimony. As you've discovered, no matter what a person's age, they can have a new life in Christ. Old things are passed away, and behold, all things become new. Thanks for sharing.

Linda Jo Martin (author) from Post Falls, Idaho, USA on August 31, 2014:

BLemley, how nice to meet you here! I know there are lots of Squidoo lensmasters I've never met... but now we get a new opportunity to connect.

Yes, I'm surprised and happy to be a Christian even though it is only for my older years. I feel truly blessed, and finally have found the source of the true love I've always searched for. Now I can have peace in my life. I needed that.

Linda Jo Martin (author) from Post Falls, Idaho, USA on August 31, 2014:

June Campbell... I embraced spirituality at the age of seventeen, and never went back on that. I experienced a lot of different religions and beliefs, and pretty much dissed Christianity, thinking, "Oh, everyone knows about THAT 'good news'..." ...and even up through the spring of 2013 I was telling people, "I've NEVER been a Christian," as if I was proud of it. So my sudden change of heart on July 14, 2013 came as a complete surprise to me. Seriously... I never expected to want to be a Christian. I can't explain the sudden transformation - I only know that it happened, and I was saved. Now I think that all those spiritual paths that didn't include salvation through Jesus were simply skirting the true solution. Of course, to become a Christian, one has to be ready to confess to being a sinner, and probably a lot of people don't see a need for doing that. Keep it in mind, though, as if you're ever in a situation where the foundation of your life is shaken and fallen out from under you, you'll find plenty of healing in a Christian church... and Jesus is seriously the best healer ever, and he heals broken hearts.

Beverly Lemley from Raleigh, NC on August 31, 2014:

What a wonderful testimony, very honest and what a journey you have been on! I agree with Stephenteacher, all that matters is that you came to Him, searching and believing in His death and resurrection. Also, the least shall be first! So...you have been at the lowest, and have survived, and have a testimony that many will find truthful and, hopefully, will lead them to know our Father, too. So nice to meet you on HubPages; I am coming over from Squidoo, too, though my lenses haven't crossed the great spokes yet. So Praise God for your faith and for finding the perfect Church home! I know you will have many readers on HubPages!

June Campbell from North Vancouver, BC, Canada on August 31, 2014:

It goes to show that we can embrace our own brand of spirituality at any age. We are never too old or too young to make a connection with whatever source we believe in. I discovered spirituality in my late fifties and never looked back.

Linda Jo Martin (author) from Post Falls, Idaho, USA on August 27, 2014:

Life is good! Thanks for coming by to leave a comment, Brian.

Brian Stephens from France on August 27, 2014:

A very honest appraisal of your life. Glad to hear you are happy with a clear direction now.

Linda Jo Martin (author) from Post Falls, Idaho, USA on August 25, 2014:

Thanks, Pawpawwrites... it is good for me... definitely has made my life a lot better!!

Jim from Kansas on August 25, 2014:

Good for you. It's never too late.

Linda Jo Martin (author) from Post Falls, Idaho, USA on August 24, 2014:

Thanks, Ilonagarden!! I'm so happy you liked "The Prayer" . . . looking at that painting brings me a sense of peace and joy.

Ilona E from Ohio on August 24, 2014:

Your story is fascinating and I love your art. "The Prayer" resonates with me. Perhaps it is the woman's smile, or the feeling from the lines and colors ?

So glad you wrote this.

Linda Jo Martin (author) from Post Falls, Idaho, USA on August 23, 2014:

I'm so happy to hear it, Cari Kay... we have more in common than I was aware of! Thanks for commenting!

Kay on August 23, 2014:

Amazing story. I, too, grew up in the Bay Area and was very much a rebel without a cause in my younger years. Being saved very much changed my life. Huge (((hug))) for you.

Linda Jo Martin (author) from Post Falls, Idaho, USA on August 22, 2014:

Hi Firstday... thanks for reading and for your kind comment.. especially about the paintings. I like my art but I often wonder if anyone else does! LOL

Rebecca Be from Lincoln, Nebraska on August 22, 2014:

Linda thanks for sharing. I look forward to following what you write. Your paintings are wonderful. I enjoyed both your story and your art work.

Linda Jo Martin (author) from Post Falls, Idaho, USA on August 21, 2014:

Thanks for commenting, 'notsuperstitious' . . I appreciate that you took the time to read about my journey to Jesus.

Edith Rose from Canada on August 21, 2014:

Thanks for sharing your journey. I enjoyed reading it.

Linda Jo Martin (author) from Post Falls, Idaho, USA on August 20, 2014:

Wow... do you miss them? I did a few painting when I was younger, then decided to make it a major pastime after my two youngest children left the nest... so most of my paintings are recent.

Deb Bryan from Chico California on August 20, 2014:

Linda, I'm not sure if I have any of them. I may have a photo of a mural I did years ago as a commissioned work. Otherwise I have sold or given away all of them.

Linda Jo Martin (author) from Post Falls, Idaho, USA on August 20, 2014:

Thanks for your comment, GypsyOwl... I am and have been so grateful for your support on Squidoo... and now on HubPages. I would love to see your paintings.

Deb Bryan from Chico California on August 19, 2014:

Thank you for sharing your testimonial. I love how we each have our own path and sometimes we have no idea how all of the little pieces of the puzzle fit together until much later along the journey. My favorite translation is New Century Version. I understand it better. I love your painting, it reminds me of one I did, about 20 years ago.

Linda Jo Martin (author) from Post Falls, Idaho, USA on August 18, 2014:

Thanks, Favored... it is true... that non-stop search for true love is over because I've found it through Jesus... and He won't let me down like so many others did.

Fay Favored from USA on August 17, 2014:

Jesus fills the gap when nothing or no one else can. Your journey is just beginning and He promises it will be good. Thanks for sharing it with us. Blessings

Linda Jo Martin (author) from Post Falls, Idaho, USA on August 17, 2014:

That's wonderful... I'm so happy it finally happened to me. Thanks, Stephen!

Stephen Carr from Corona, CA on August 17, 2014:

I believe, that every person, at least once in their life has something that happens to them. And it makes them sit up and say, "There must be a God." Jesus told a parable that the people that come in at the last, will still be paid the same as those who came in first. All that matters, is that you came!

Linda Jo Martin (author) from Post Falls, Idaho, USA on August 17, 2014:

Thank you for commenting, Dr. Bill...

Fully Alive: You are lucky to have become a Christian early in life. Living so many years without Jesus took its toll on me, and yet He saved me anyhow. I'm so grateful... but definitely, it would have been better to be able to live my entire life as a Christian.

Diana Wenzel from Colorado on August 17, 2014:

I appreciate what you have shared about your journey to becoming a Christian. Everyone's spiritual awakening and journey is very unique. My life would be so different had I not accepted the call at an early age. Still, even now, I need to continue to grow into the fullness of my faith and all that it enables me to be and do. I wish you much peace and many blessings in this powerful new life.

William Leverne Smith from Hollister, MO on August 17, 2014:

If it is working for you, I am happy for you. Thanks for sharing.

Linda Jo Martin (author) from Post Falls, Idaho, USA on August 17, 2014:

Thank you, Loretta... I'm feeling very blessed. Thanks for commenting!

Loretta Livingstone from Chilterns, UK. on August 17, 2014:

I'm so pleased for you.

Linda Jo Martin (author) from Post Falls, Idaho, USA on August 17, 2014:

Hi there, Ibidii.. yes, my kids are all adults now and doing well. I pray for them and the narcissist ex-boyfriend frequently - it is sure to have some kind of good effect. I'm leaving it in God's hands... whatever is His will is the best thing for all of us.

Ibidii on August 17, 2014:

I am sad that you had to suffer at the hands of the narcissist ex BF. I am happy that you have found a group that supports your feelings for Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. Bless you. I hope that your kids are doing well.

Linda Jo Martin (author) from Post Falls, Idaho, USA on August 17, 2014:

Thank you, Paul and Brenda! I'm glad you enjoyed my story. I look forward to all our time together here on HubPages!

Treasures By Brenda from Canada on August 17, 2014:

You've had an interesting journey, Linda. Interesting read.

pkmcr from Cheshire UK on August 17, 2014:

What an incredibly thoughtful and well thought out page - I really enjoyed reading it.

Linda Jo Martin (author) from Post Falls, Idaho, USA on August 17, 2014:

Thanks so much, Susan... I'm glad to see you here! Jesus really was always with me, guiding me; I can see that now.

Susan Deppner from Arkansas USA on August 17, 2014:

What a wonderful testimony! I'm rejoicing with you that you've learned to embrace Jesus as he embraces you. Thanks so much for sharing.