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My Focused Journey Through Life: A Discussion About Life and Religion

Missy is a unique writer who enjoys inviting her readers into her thoughts through her poetry and other topics of discussion.  

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A Glimpse Into My Mind

Recently, I have been on my journey to find the religion I genuinely believe in. One that I could finally feel secure to be a part of -- no burdens for me to bear within it. I had wrestled with the Christian faith I was raised in. I tried hard to be a part of it all but never seemed to fit in.

I have always been interested in every country and the different religions and faiths. I have made friends from all around the world through social media and my writing. It has made me more intrigued by what others believe in: Muslim, Hindu, Catholic, and even wondered greatly about no religion at all. I asked myself if atheism was not so odd in the grand scheme of things? I felt guilty about this, of course. Even so, it wasn’t a thought that hadn’t entered my mind, and therefore, I felt very compelled to explore that as well.

Do You Think Mr. Dawkins is Right or Wrong?

Even an Atheist Can Help You Find Your Purpose: Richard Dawkins

Many explorers – as I like to call them – have made a contribution to my journey of self. Richard Dawkins is one of those; the well-known atheist whom I believe has been doing exactly what I feel we all should do no matter what religion or belief we choose for ourselves. He has made his way across the globe searching for his own answers to why people are of a certain religion. He has gotten a lot of criticism for it. Most people think Mr. Dawkins is negative about all beliefs but his own, and his purpose is not to understand, but to argue his point of evolution. I would not disagree with that totally, but I think he is only making scientific discussion. That’s how his mind works. Dawkins has been degraded for the same attitude as Sigmund Freud had in his theories, and if you listen to interviews with Richard Dawkins and other journal pieces that describe him and his beliefs, you will get why.

I've Learned a Little About Hinduism and Catholicism: There's More to Learn

I have talked with friends who are Hindus and have gathered from those conversations that they worship one specific being, and this being can take many Godly forms. Brahman being the mightiest of those forms. Their traditions and how they celebrate certain things such as weddings are very different from other religions. Still, as I respect highly this religion, I know I do not know enough about it to want to join it.

I have also gained a bit of knowledge about what it would be like to be Catholic. I think if I was to go that way, I would want to do it with devout worship to God and Mary and become a nun. This has always been a mindset of mine. Often, I thought of changing my Christian beliefs for Catholic beliefs, just so I could join the nunnery. However, as of now, the Christian faith has strayed from my path as well, and so, being a nun without the positivity of the exact God I believe in would be the wrong path for me to choose.

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I Thought About Taking a Leap of Faith and Becoming a Muslim

There have been solid pulls for me to become Muslim. There are several reasons for this.

First, the main reason my thoughts wandered to this faith was that I found myself admiring someone deeply who was a part of this religion. I admired this person so much and their love for being Muslim. I had blissful admiration for how they would talk about the sincerity that goes into the worship of the prophet Muhammed. They made me want to be just like them.

Furthermore, I found that their belief in God – the one I had always known- was very similar to his Christian thoughts. God was love, and love was to be treasured in this religion.

Reading more and talking more with my friend about the Muslim religion also gave me a sense of difference, specifically in how much I did not know because my American teachings had not put God on the right pedestal. Our way of worship in the southern churches brings judgments to ones who go against the cult of a church flock. If we do not worship in a particular village within a specific realm of people, we are chastised to go to hell. I hate to be that harsh, but it is the truth.



I Think I Will Rest Here for a While: I'm Going to Explore Buddhism

All this has brought me to my mindset now. My thoughts have drifted in these last weeks to a place I have ventured before and have attempted to explore by trying a fasting challenge I wrote about in another essay. I was in between then. I was drifting from the uncertainty of Christianity to wanting to let it go and follow a spiritual only view of things.

Right now, I still find myself in the place of wanting not to let go of a Godly being, but I also don't want to grasp it so tight either. And therefore, I am back at the works of Buddha and the meditation way of thinking of simply a more peaceful existence for myself. I won't have to explain a complicated religion for a stall on my path. Instead, if ever asked, I can say I am a part of something spiritual that is right for me as an individual. I don't have to disregard God, but I don't have to love him the same way as a particular religion.

When I thought about it more, and I listened to great minds such as the Dalai Lama, Eckhart Tolle, Mahatma Gandhi, all these people who had lifted me with their words through hard times and inspired me with words through good times without me even realizing I concluded that I needed to stop, and well, STOP! I needed to take a break from all the questions in my mind and learn that I already knew where I needed to be, at least within this moment and time.

I have traveled extensively throughout my own life. Through hard times, lonely times, uncertain times of what to believe, I realize that I have always had this one certain spiritual aspect within myself. This one specific focus is to find my Peace. I recognize God, for me, is an open field of flowers. He is the beautiful blue sky on a clear spring day. God is the wind blowing through the trees and through my hair that exhilarates my senses and makes me happy. He is not a form of anything but what we feel within ourselves. He is indeed Peace.

Who knows, one day we may perish, and there will be an alternate place we soar to that emulates the vision of what we are taught heaven is like? Maybe it is up to us to find a way, in our way, to make it there. I have never believed in one specific type of faith that would get us there anyway. If we are all his children, then he has given us all different values for some reason, right? However, that does not mean we are not supposed to explore them all, and we must learn to do this together. See…EXPLORE! That's what I think we are supposed to do.

So, I am at a resting point with Buddhism right now. Will I stay here? Yes, well, in a way. I will choose it as my open book to what I believe because some define Buddhism as religion, but it is not a religion at all. It's just Peace and learning to be kind to every living thing. That's me. However, I am also that curious person, the explorer who wants to know all she can about other religions and cultures and just everything. One day, that might take me to a place where I say to myself, "It's time to try a new religion," and if that happens, I will not abandon Buddha's beliefs. On the contrary, I will expand on his truth and values.

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An Introduction of the Poem

This latest poem came about as I continued on my path of self-discovery. Although, I do believe that I have been very successful at finding myself in the last five years. I have also realized that one never truly finds themselves in a way that they would not need to keep searching; I hope that makes sense. When I recently watched an interview with Eckhart Tolle, he said something very similar to that, and I was like – Voila! That’s it! I totally get that.

My Inquiring Mind Would Like to Know...

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The Chosen

When I was there, I was

nowhere; longing to be

somewhere in a constant

state of despair.


My battle started in a

confusion. I did not

understand my own

intrusion...


a child of no one - not

really. I was born it

seemed with an instant

delusion...


no comprehension to the

ways of this world; no

desire to be intertwined

in the turmoil...


lost on a path of no

direction. Bore to parents

who only rejected.


Where must I go to

find my light? I have been

lost for so long in the dark

of a night.


Then, came an awakening

unto myself. I have been

summoned here to resist the

rest.


Make my own path, which

chosen others have found,

we are the children in the

upside of down.

© 2017 Missy Smith

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