I Saw Myself

Updated on January 7, 2019
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I was born and raised as a country boy in the rural Pocono Mountains of northeastern Pennsylvania. I love the art of writing..

I have read many stories of people that claimed to have died and seen the light. I have read about others that were just at peace as if they were floating. Other times I have read about people floating near the ceiling and looking down on themselves. Are these stories real?

I can guarantee that these stories are real. At one time in my life I died. How do I know? Because I fit into one of the categories listed above. The question that many people ask is if you were afraid. I can't speak for other people, but from my own experience and from what I have read, the answer is no. There is a peacefulness about it that is hard to explain.

My story began in December of 1994. I was at work and I started to get extremely dizzy. I went into the men's room and splashed water on my face. Coming out of the men's room I rushed to a work station and had to sit down. A couple of the women there thought I was joking. I assured them I felt terrible. An ambulance was called and I was taken to the hospital emergency room. They checked me and I felt a little better so I was released.

I did go back to work the next day feeling fairly well, but I got bouts of feeling dizzy for the next week or so. One day at work I told them I felt bad and I had to go home. I backed my truck into the driveway and got out. I immediately dropped to my knees, then crawling on my hands and knees to my front door. I opened it and got inside I just laid on the living room floor. It was there that it felt like my head was going to explode and blood flowed from my nose. I got a message to my wife that she needed to get a ride home.

My mother was also notified and she got me to the doctor. She arranged to have tests given. For the next few months I was given test after test and no medical condition was found causing to make me feel the way I did. Except for the tests I spent my time in bed or several days in the hospital.

For months at times I would get headaches that felt like my head would split open and often had severe nose bleeds. I would lay in bed and it often felt like my head was staying still but my body was moving from side to side. It was a strange eerie feeling. One that I would wish on no one. I would lay in bed not wanting to go to sleep because I thought I would not wake up again. Naturally no one can stay awake forever.

One time I was floating near the ceiling of my bedroom looking down on myself. There I was in bed totally lifeless. I was so pale like life had been drained out of me. I was dead. I knew I was dead, How could it be? Why was I floating here looking down on myself? I can't be dead, I was thinking. I see no light I was thinking. I was thinking, how could I be thinking if I was dead. It was strange, but there I was in bed. Why was I so still? Why was I so pale? Move damn it move, I was saying, but there was now sound, just my lips moving as I floated near the ceiling looking down on the dead me.

I can't estimate the time I was looking down on myself. Was it a few minutes? I think it was. Then I felt myself moving toward the bed. I reentered my body. It was a strange feeling, it was warm. I will never forget that feeling. I was alive again, I was alive. It was not my time to die, I said to myself. Yes, I had been dead, I know what it is like to die. It is not painful, just a strange feeling.

I was still feeling bad. For three months I laid in bed except for the time I had doctor visits. All the doctors realized how bad I was, but none could find the cause. It was one day my mother wanted to take me to a chiropractor. I went and immediately started to feel slightly better. Within a month I was walking again. A little wobbly, but none the less I was walking.

In a little over month I was much better, but I had this fear that if I walked to far I would fall down. It was just a fear that was in my head. I finally got back to work and I will admit that it was a few months until I was back to normal. The chiropractor brought me back to good health again.

I don't talk much about the time I died. It is one of those things that is hard to talk about, but it happened. I know what it is like to die. Next time will I see the light as many claim. I have no idea, but I do not fear death. It happens to everyone, I am just one of those that got the first taste of it.


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      • Larry Fish profile imageAUTHOR

        Larry W Fish 

        42 hours ago from Raleigh

        Thank you, Peggy. Yes, there is no doubt in my mind that after we physically die, it is not the end. Yes, it was a bad time and totally changed my outlook on life.

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        Peggy Woods 

        2 days ago from Houston, Texas

        Thanks for sharing your experience with us. It is very reassuring. I have written about why I believe in an afterlife because of personal family experiences plus reading many books on the subject. Glad to hear that you recovered from what was adversely impacting your life. It certainly did not sound like fun!

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        Jim Huffman 

        10 days ago

        Well written Had no idea you had been through something like this. Thanks for sharing.

      • Larry Fish profile imageAUTHOR

        Larry W Fish 

        11 days ago from Raleigh

        Thank you for your comment, Linda. Yes, it was a bad time.

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        Linda Crampton 

        13 days ago from British Columbia, Canada

        Your experience sounds very interesting, Larry, though the unexplained illness must have been horrible. Thank you for sharing the information.

      • Larry Fish profile imageAUTHOR

        Larry W Fish 

        13 days ago from Raleigh

        Thank you, Liz, Dora, and Shyron, It was good to hear from all of you. We have to realize how precious life is. One day at a time is how we have to do it and we need to love our families. It was a scary time and I have thought about it often. I don't often talk about it. It is one of those things that I usually keep to myself. I turned 70 not long ago and I felt it was time to get it off my chest.

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        Liz Westwood 

        13 days ago from UK

        This is an interesting story. I am pleased that you made a full recovery.

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        Dora Weithers 

        13 days ago from The Caribbean

        Larry, thank you for sharing. It's encouraging hearing from one who tasted death that there is no need to be afraid of it.

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        Shyron E Shenko 

        2 weeks ago from Texas

        Larry, these stories fascinate me. glad you did not stay away too long. My hubby was afraid to go, but then he went peacefully. The hospice nurse told us many stories he had experienced.

        Blessings my friend

      • Larry Fish profile imageAUTHOR

        Larry W Fish 

        2 weeks ago from Raleigh

        Thank you for your comment, Yves. I have read up on this quite extensively and having it happen to me drastically changed my outlook on life. Since that period in my life I have cherished every day since then.

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        Larry W Fish 

        2 weeks ago from Raleigh

        Thank you, Flourish. I kind of had the same feeling about what it was but nothing could be determined, but I'll never know. It was a scary time in my life though, a very scary time.

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        Yves 

        2 weeks ago

        I've read so many of these fascinating accounts, and even knew someone who had this experience in the hospital when they were quite young. You'd think it would have turned him into a more introspective person, but no such luck. Lol.

        Anyhoo, it is reassuring to hear that death is not necessarily a scary thing. We're all glad you made it back to life!

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        FlourishAnyway 

        2 weeks ago from USA

        I’m glad you are still with us and able to share your story. It sounds like you had something neurological going on that never got diagnosed.

      • Larry Fish profile imageAUTHOR

        Larry W Fish 

        2 weeks ago from Raleigh

        Thanks for your story about your father, Jackie. It is amazing that I keep hearing story after story. There is definitely something that we can't explain. I can't explain what happened to me and I am sure it is something you can't explain either, but we know there is something more that our physical being.

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        Larry W Fish 

        2 weeks ago from Raleigh

        Thanks for the comment, Eric. Honestly, life is a treasured thing and we have to be thankful for every day.

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        Jackie Lynnley 

        2 weeks ago from The Beautiful South

        I believe you. I have never had this experience but I do believe I went to be with my father who was dying in another state. I spent his dying moments with him I truly believe and we both comforted each other. As soon as I woke, from what many would call a dream, I got a call that my dad was dead, but I knew it. I knew just when he left. And I was at peace with it.

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        Eric Dierker 

        2 weeks ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

        Dying is very easy. I have done it by paramedic's stories. I did not do an outer body thing. My condition was such that I just expected and was at peace with the outcome.

        I reckon those who loved me wanted to see what crazy nonsense I would be up to next.

        Peace and warmth. Like a Nirvana. But I got that here I figure. As they say another day another dollar.

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