How Can I Survive With Only $10
I had just picked up my boys from baseball practice. It was getting late and I was tired from working all day. I looked down and saw a familiar sight. The gas light in my car was on. I knew I would have to stop and get gas or not make it home.
Not only did I dread stopping because I was too tired to pump the gas, but I also knew that I only had $10 to my name. Now, don't get me wrong, $10 would go a good ways in my little car, but we had no food at home. The boys were hungry and I had to figure out what I could do to feed them.
I remember sarcastically, questioning, "Ok, God, we have $10, no gas and the kids are hungry, so what are we going to do now?" I wasn't really expecting an answer. I wasn't really expecting anything. I think I was basically trying to figure it out myself.
Life after divorce, had always been a financial hardship. We lived paycheck to paycheck. I often scraped up whatever I could find to have food to make it until my next paycheck. I have to say that somehow, we always got by. We may not have had a lot, but we never went hungry.
I pulled into the gas station, and up to a pump. It was late evening now, so it was getting dark but the automatic lights at the gas station had not yet come on. I sensed someone approaching. As a protective mom, I felt myself going into protective mode. I continued to remove the cap on my gas tank but held tightly to the pepper spray attached to my key chain.
I heard a man's voice nearby saying several times, "Excuse me mam". I refused to acknowledge him, as I assumed he wanted to ask for money or to harm me in some way. Then he explained that he wasn't coming any closer and he didn't want anything from except to ask me a question. I glanced over and saw what seemed to be a black, middle aged man, dressed in some sort of uniform. It was not a police or fireman type of uniform, but maybe a janitorial uniform.
The man explained that he was a God fearing man. He said that God had impressed upon his heart to buy me some gas. He didn't want to scare or offend me. He just wanted to know if I would accept the gas if he purchased it. I reluctantly shook my head yes and said thank you, as the man walked into the store. A few moments passed and he walked out and drove away.
I immediately went inside to question the gas purchase. The attendant confirmed that the gentleman had purchased $10 of gas for my vehicle. At that moment, my eyes were filled with tears and my heart was overjoyed.
You may think that $10 is no big deal. It is true, $10 would not solve my financial struggles. I believe it was not about solving my financial struggles. I felt a renewed faith in myself, in man and in God. At that moment, I felt god speak to my heart and say, "Don't worry, I've got this".