Homeless But Never Hopeless
Photos of Ken
I never planned on being homeless. I don't believe anybody does. However, this is my current situation and I have to keep hope alive and continue moving forward.
This time last year I was running a growing business with great plans for a prosperous future. Then it happened. I had a stroke due to a blood clot in my brain. At the time I thought I was really done. I made my peace and was ready to leave this world. But as luck would have it, I was spared serious long term damage. A slight speech impediment and nerve damage in my left side of my body but for the most part I was able to recover most of my mental and motor skills.
I did lose my business though and found myself with zero income and eventually I lost my home. My situation became desperate and it didn't take long for depression to set in. My mind raced out of control trying to think of a way out of this situation. With no help available (literally no help) I found myself losing hope. Fleeting thoughts of ending my life tried to creep in but I knew I was stronger than that. I knew that I had much more to offer the world and so much more to live for.
I had a new grandson and so many projects I wanted to complete in regards to new business opportunities and community issues. But what could I do? What could I do to pick myself up and get back in the game? I didn't have the financing to re-open my recording studio. I didn't even have money to eat day to day. Yeah, it was pretty hopeless I thought.
All I had was my computer so, I decided to write. I decided to focus on re-branding myself as a survivor rather than a victim. My website www.CrazybabyTV.com was still live and I had somewhat of a social media presence that I figured I could expand on, build an audience and share my experience with. I don't really know if what I have to share is valuable to anyone but I'll put it out there anyway in the hopes that maybe someone may be helped in some way or another.
Homelessness is a demoralizing and dehumanizing situation that you could never really understand unless you've experienced it. Most people see homeless individuals as bums, lazy drug & alcohol addicted or mentally disturbed. I'm none of those. I've never drank, smoked, used drugs, and I have all of my mental faculties. Many homeless people are working full time jobs with families and just literally can't afford to live in our capitalist driven society that finds it so easy to throw people away without even a second thought.
Don't get me wrong, there are a few who are compassionate enough to at least try and help but for the most part Americans turn a blind eye to the homeless within their communities thinking that there are services available to help them. Sadly there aren't many services available especially if you are a homeless & hungry male. Many programs are set up for woman and children. Homeless men are for some reason looked down upon. The forgotten ones. America should be ashamed of itself. This shouldn't be an issue in the "So Called" wealthiest most powerful nation in the history of the world.
But my story is of hope. I hold on to what hope has to offer. I have nothing left to lose and everything to gain. I can't give up no matter how dire my situation may get. My daily challenge is minor compared to many others less fortunate than myself. I know that I will overcome this dark time in my life. My hope is that when I do I will be able to help others do the same.
Currently I'm seeking work. I don't panhandle or beg on street corners. I spend my days looking for work where ever I can and spreading awareness on the plight of homelessness in America. I do ask that you visit my website and donate. I'm raising cash to purchase a van or a small RV that will serve as home and transportation for myself. I offer services such as website & graphic design and I'd much rather work for compensation. If not me please find someone in your community that you can be a blessing to.
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