Finding Yourself, Even When You Aren't Lost
How does that even make sense?
I recently took a trip to Jamaica for my birthday hoping I would have a great time, but I gained so much more than that on this trip! I found my soul. I know it sounds crazy, but it's true, I found a truth that I didn't even know I was searching for.
"All the perceived joy and happiness that I have previously experienced in life thus far has been factory manufactured."
This is a story all about how...
Roughly two weeks ago I went to Jamaica with my best-friend to celebrate my birthday, my goal was to wake up in Jamaica on the actual morning of my birthday (Oct. 19). We had a 4-night, 5-day stay in Negril, at the BEAUTIFUL Hideaway Royalton Resort. - Did I mention how beautiful the resort was? - Any-who, we arrived on Thursday afternoon and from the time my feet touched the ground to the moment I left Jamaica, I was simply in AWE. From the people, to the food, everything was magical, but it wasn't until I left that I truly understood the impact that Jamaica had in my spiritual life.
While on the island I of course participated in normal tourist activities but also made it a point to interact with the locals of the island.
- Happiness & Joy are CHOICES
- Love is not just for those close to you, but everyone you come into contact with
- Religion is NOT indicative of Spirituality
- There is NO right way to live
- Freedom must be taken and not given
Let me explain.
"Freedom must be taken and not given."
My life got flipped, turned upside down...
I've always been a pretty upbeat person (if you let me tell it), but now I have a completely new understanding of what true joy is.
Now listen closely.
All the perceived joy and happiness that I have previously experienced in life thus far has been FACTORY MANUFACTURED!
Now you're probably thinking that this makes no sense.
All of the things that have made me happy- besides genuine relationships with humans -have only made me happy because of societal norms. [insert conspiracy theories] During my time on the island I found true joy and peace in the surety of life, and all I had to do in order to experience this is stand still.
No seriously, I stood still and really experienced life, realizing that I was alive, breathing and well led to me to deciding that I needed to change. And by change I mean real change, turn my life upside down and start over type of change.
"I am a source of life and love."
I'd like to take a minute, just sit right there...
I felt LOVED out there, like true, genuine love. Just because I existed. It felt as if there was nothing that I could do to forsake or lose this love, even if I fell short. Admittedly, I probably don't always come off as pleasant, I smile when necessary and speak when spoken to, but I have seen the light. Seriously, there is a pure light that emulates from positive interaction with other humans, and it wasn't until I came home that I realized this. Since being back, I find myself craving that light in my interaction with others, making a conscious effort to be a source of light and wholesome energy.
I am a source of life and love.
I'll tell you how...
I̶'̶v̶e̶ ̶b̶e̶e̶n̶ ̶f̶r̶e̶e̶d̶.̶I've taken my freedom.
I can truly say that I experienced freedom in a spiritual sense, it wasn't about what rights I had or what I was allowed to do, it w̶a̶s̶ is about the freedom that I was born with. I have reclaimed my birthright.
I was finally there...
I am here. Present. Conscious. Aware. Willing.
I am more than what I ever thought I could be, and it feels amazing. I wake up in awe everyday of my capabilities and in awe of my life. This trip has changed my life in ways I never even thought possible and I am so grateful to life for the experience.
My journey doesn't end here, it has only just begun.
I implore you to take a trip somewhere, doesn't have to be Jamaica, and l̶o̶s̶e̶ find yourself, even if you aren't lost.
© 2018 Juny S