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Finding Yourself, Even When You Aren't Lost

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Juny is from the Caribbean Island of Haiti and plans on moving back to the Caribbean in the near future, preferably the island of Jamaica.

How does that even make sense?

I recently took a trip to Jamaica for my birthday hoping I would have a great time, but I gained so much more than that on this trip! I found my soul. I know it sounds crazy, but it's true, I found a truth that I didn't even know I was searching for.

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"All the perceived joy and happiness that I have previously experienced in life thus far has been factory manufactured."

This is a story all about how...

Roughly two weeks ago I went to Jamaica with my best-friend to celebrate my birthday, my goal was to wake up in Jamaica on the actual morning of my birthday (Oct. 19). We had a 4-night, 5-day stay in Negril, at the BEAUTIFUL Hideaway Royalton Resort. - Did I mention how beautiful the resort was? - Any-who, we arrived on Thursday afternoon and from the time my feet touched the ground to the moment I left Jamaica, I was simply in AWE. From the people, to the food, everything was magical, but it wasn't until I left that I truly understood the impact that Jamaica had in my spiritual life.

While on the island I of course participated in normal tourist activities but also made it a point to interact with the locals of the island.

My takeaway:

  • Happiness & Joy are CHOICES
  • Love is not just for those close to you, but everyone you come into contact with
  • Religion is NOT indicative of Spirituality
  • There is NO right way to live
  • Freedom must be taken and not given

Let me explain.


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"Freedom must be taken and not given."

My life got flipped, turned upside down...

I've always been a pretty upbeat person (if you let me tell it), but now I have a completely new understanding of what true joy is.

Now listen closely.

All the perceived joy and happiness that I have previously experienced in life thus far has been FACTORY MANUFACTURED!

Now you're probably thinking that this makes no sense.

All of the things that have made me happy- besides genuine relationships with humans -have only made me happy because of societal norms. [insert conspiracy theories] During my time on the island I found true joy and peace in the surety of life, and all I had to do in order to experience this is stand still.

No seriously, I stood still and really experienced life, realizing that I was alive, breathing and well led to me to deciding that I needed to change. And by change I mean real change, turn my life upside down and start over type of change.


"I am a source of life and love."

I'd like to take a minute, just sit right there...

I felt LOVED out there, like true, genuine love. Just because I existed. It felt as if there was nothing that I could do to forsake or lose this love, even if I fell short. Admittedly, I probably don't always come off as pleasant, I smile when necessary and speak when spoken to, but I have seen the light. Seriously, there is a pure light that emulates from positive interaction with other humans, and it wasn't until I came home that I realized this. Since being back, I find myself craving that light in my interaction with others, making a conscious effort to be a source of light and wholesome energy.

I am a source of life and love.

I'll tell you how...

I̶'̶v̶e̶ ̶b̶e̶e̶n̶ ̶f̶r̶e̶e̶d̶.̶I've taken my freedom.

I can truly say that I experienced freedom in a spiritual sense, it wasn't about what rights I had or what I was allowed to do, it w̶a̶s̶ is about the freedom that I was born with. I have reclaimed my birthright.



I was finally there...

I am here. Present. Conscious. Aware. Willing.

I am more than what I ever thought I could be, and it feels amazing. I wake up in awe everyday of my capabilities and in awe of my life. This trip has changed my life in ways I never even thought possible and I am so grateful to life for the experience.

My journey doesn't end here, it has only just begun.

I implore you to take a trip somewhere, doesn't have to be Jamaica, and l̶o̶s̶e̶ find yourself, even if you aren't lost.

My friend & I living our best lives!

My friend & I living our best lives!

© 2018 Juny S

Comments

Liz Westwood from UK on November 03, 2018:

Sounds like an amazing trip in many ways.