Memories with Presley

Updated on December 28, 2017
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Danielle is a mother of two gorgeous kids & married to her best friend. She is a grieving mother trying her best to write through her pain.

Memories

It's funny how different things spark different memories.

How a song can spark an emotion.

How words can spark a feeling.

How even the smallest things can spark something that you remember about someone.

I don't ever have a hard time finding things in memories of my sweet Presley. I can look at my son, and see her in his freckles. We call them "angel kisses." I can look in the mirror and see my mini. I can notice how my rear view mirror is always facing where she sat in the back seat, where I've moved Righley to now. I can see her in all the photos in our house, and in the middle bedroom that is still "Presley's Room."

Today, I didn't do anything out of the ordinary just a regular day. I take lunch and decide it's a chef salad kind of day. I'm 12 weeks pregnant today, and my cravings are always crazy. I ordered a chef salad, but without even second thinking it I asked for extra tomatoes. I ALWAYS had to ask for extra ones, because my loving sweet girl always ate all of my tomatoes. I would literally have to eat as fast as I could. She loved salads, and she REALLY loved tomatoes, which she definitely gets from me. I'm a tomato loving girl, and so is she.

It's things like that, you don't even realize you were making memories at the time until it is a memory, and it's all you have left. I have photos, and memories of her. I cling onto my photos, and I am always remembering the memories of her.

Some memories are hard, some may seem silly to others, and then some can make me laugh and cry all at once. I'm not sure if it's the holidays, or the fact that all of this is becoming a real thing to me, but I tend to cry more. I used to go days, but now I don't miss any days without crying. Pregnancy doesn't help the fact that I'm emotional. Just a simple thing like extra tomatoes for my girl made my eyes swell up and the tears come out.

I still don't understand why bad things happen to people, but I'm still trying to hold on and believe there is a purpose for it all. My sweet, sweet, loving, caring, beautiful, inspiring girl lived with so much LOVE for a reason. She loved hard and she loved everyone around her. There's a purpose, and simple things like extra tomatoes are the memories I hold onto.

Presley,

I love you way way more.

-Mommy

Presley

Born July 20th, 2013. Presley Grace was my mini-me from day one. She was full of love, laughter, and could light up any room she went into. Everyone that knew her loved her, and even people who didn't know her still loved her.

On May 13th, 2017, Presley was in a tragic accident where she lost her life. We only had three years with our sweet girl. This blog is to help myself, and hopefully others who are grieving as well.

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I'm always happy to help you out with any questions you may have. I love reaching out to others, hearing others who have been through tragedies and being a listening ear when needed.

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danigirten@gmail.com

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      Moon Daisy 3 weeks ago from London

      I'm so sorry that you lost your beautiful girl, I can't imagine what you're going through. It's a brave thing that you're doing writing about her, and a wise thing. I know that writing is extremly therapeutic, and I'm glad that you're sharing with us here about Presley and her life. I wish you all the best, and look forward to reading more. x