Is It the Happiest Time of the Year?

Updated on December 29, 2017
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Danielle is a mother of two gorgeous kids & married to her best friend. She is a grieving mother trying her best to write through her pain.

Holiday's are hard and difficult, but life can't go on without them.

The happiest time of the year?

Thanksgiving & Christmas are supposed to be some of the best days of the year. It's time spent with family, friends and loved ones. It's a time where we eat so much, we could just fall over. It's a time of giving love and gifts to others. I didn't expect Holidays to ever be difficult. Honestly, I didn't even think about how hard it would be this year until it was here. I'm sitting at a table during a family thanksgiving, and I just keep thinking about last years Thanksgiving. Presley was here. She was right here.

It hurts to really think about a time before she was gone, but the memories are all I'm left with. It's been a long time since I was able to write. I continued to write in her journal to her, but as far as the blog goes...some words are too difficult to write in the moment. Some days, I still have moments every day, and others I can skip a day and focus on the world. My world feels smaller. The holidays are difficult. I'm still missing you, and life isn't getting easier without you.

I thought maybe if I stayed busy with life, that it wouldn't hurt as much, but I soon learned that it made things much worst. The pain of you not being here to ask me a million questions about every single thing, of not having your snuggles, kisses and I love you way mores.

Thanksgiving is about being thankful for things in your life. I'm thankful that I still had 3 beautiful years with you. I'm thankful that you made me the mom to a little girl. I'm thankful that I had you as a mini-me. I'm thankful that even though it's tough I still live my life. I'm thankful to be a mother to you and to Righley.

I set up a new Christmas Tree in your honor, I will add a new ornament every year just for you. I will make sure that you are always remembered, and never forgotten. Although that is nearly impossible.

Holiday's are hard and difficult, but life can't go on without them.

Presley,

I love you way way more.

-Mommy

Presley

Born July 20th, 2013. Presley Grace was my mini-me from day one. She was full of love, laughter, and could light up any room she went into. Everyone that knew her loved her, and even people who didn't know her still loved her.

On May 13th, 2017, Presley was in a tragic accident where she lost her life. We only had three years with our sweet girl. This blog is to help myself, and hopefully others who are grieving as well.

I'm always happy to help you out with any questions you may have. I love reaching out to others, hearing others who have been through tragedies and being a listening ear when needed.

Contact Information:

danigirten@gmail.com

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