For The Woman Who Needs To Find Herself Again.
Where did you go?
Somewhere along life, you lost yourself. You forgot how valuable and special you were as an individual, and managed to sacrifice who you are as a person, to become someone that the world wanted you to be. You allowed the opinions of other's to take control of your life. The opinions of other's brainwashed you so much, to the point that you have forgotten everything about yourself.
For a long time, you were solely focused on making other's happy. Always putting the needs of other's before yourself. You allowed the happiness of other's to be more important than your own, which caused you to feel alone when you hit rock bottom.
You try your absolute hardest to be happy everyday. You tell yourself on a daily basis that you love your life, and that everything is okay, when deep down, a part of you understands that it's not. Take a moment and ask yourself-Are you currently where you want to be in life? If you died tomorrow, would you be satisfied with all of the accomplishments that you've made in your lifetime? If not, something needs to change.
"You became the girl that you vowed yourself that you would never become; The girl who doesn't know who she is anymore".— Ashley Riley
You have spent your entire life living up to other's expectations of you, when you aren't even accepting of yourself. You followed the direction of what the world wanted you to be, which resulted in unhappiness. At the end of the day you feel lost, and a sense of emptiness, but don't be discouraged because everyone goes through a point in their life where they feel lost.
People who have felt lost in their lives, have also found themselves again. It didn't happen overnight, but within time your life will start to unfold and will begin to make sense. Sometimes we need to lose ourselves in order to find ourselves.
Life can be overwhelming and scary, but that's normal. Often times, you find yourself running to other's for help, but you need to understand that the only person who can help you, is yourself. As you get older, you will realize that at the end of the day, the only person who is there for you is yourself..and God.
What do you suffer from?
I understand that growing up is hard. It seems like everyone is pushing you to figure out what you want to do with your life. The constant stress only causes you panic because you feel like time is running out, but that's not true. You are young, and you feel as if you owe everyone an explanation. I'm telling you right now..you don't owe anyone an explanation of what you do with your life. People may have the right to give their opinions or advice, but they aren't in charge of your decisions. Your life is your life, not theirs.
Regardless of what anyone tells you, you don't need to have your entire life planned your twenties. Hell, there are people in their fifties that don't know what they are doing with their lives. You need to take a step back, breathe, and love yourself as a person. Because once you love yourself as a person, everything in your life will slowly fall into place.
Although there are billions of people in this world, there is only one of you. Don't let anyone try to change you, or stop you from being who you are as a person because there will never be another person like you. Everyone in this life has the ability to do big things and bring value, but the size difference is up to you. Never waste your time being someone that you aren't because when it's your time to go, it will be your biggest regret.
There will always be times in life where you will feel confused, numb, and lost. In those times, always remember that you will find yourself again. Just give yourself time.
© 2018 Ashley Riley