The Girl Who Never Asks For Help

Updated on February 14, 2018
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Christina is a freelance writer with a gypsy spirit and a deep passion to help others through her own experiences poured into her writings.

I know you. I know your heart. You’re the girl in the invisible armor - the girl who wears her heart on her sleeve but still somehow finds a way to shield that from the rest of the world. You’ve been through hell and back and, at times, it seemed that it would never end. Maybe you’ve been surrounded by family, friends and acquaintances. Maybe you haven’t or maybe you just knew that all of those people around you weren’t really there for you. You have a keen intuition that many don’t understand or give you credit for. You have an incredibly giving spirit and heart and perhaps the deep, internal longing for someone to be there for you drives you to be as giving of yourself to others as possible, at times, even to your own detriment. You know things that you don’t understand and you feel things so deeply that they burn into your soul, creating an ache for the ability to be able to do something about all the injustices, both small and large, you see happen on a daily basis. You’re the girl who cries on her way to work but walks in with a smile on her face and speaks kind words to anyone who crosses her path, never giving anyone a reason to think that she is hurting or going through her own personal struggles. You are the girl that carries on and somehow finds a way to get through your struggles, never letting anyone in, never letting anyone know and never asking for help.


I know you because I am you. We are the iron women - the women hiding our true inner identity, hiding behind the armor we create for ourselves, fighting for eve

We feel, we hurt and we experience loss, sadness, and personal tragedies just like everyone else. Yet, we treat ourselves almost as if we aren’t allowed to be like everyone else - to be human. We feel as if our problems are our own to figure out and we our best not to put the burden of our problems on others - as if expressing ourselves and being honest about our struggles would be some kind of punishable offense or crime. It makes no sense, really. How could someone who feels so deeply for others, who cares so deeply about others and who is so generous and passionate, feel so badly about reaching out for help themselves? It’s a question that I still cannot answer. It’s illogical and elusive.

At times, when I look back on my own life, I find myself wondering how I came out of the nightmare experiences I’ve had, unbroken and still breathing. So many of these experiences had me feeling like I was holding my breath until it was over, holding on by a string of strength. I never reached out to anyone for help in any way - whether it be a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on or just some advice, support and borrowed strength. And I know that many reading this have been there as well. How did we do it? How did we make it through? The answer to that lies within each of us. We are so much stronger than we give ourselves credit for and so much more resilient than we think we are. We all have incredible power within ourselves that can move mountains and be the catalyst to positive change. Where we fall short is not realizing that we don’t have to get through it alone so often. The strength we hold is so powerful when harnessed correctly but we deprive ourselves of the replenishment we need when we refuse to ask for help and end up completely depleting ourselves, leaving us running on fumes and with barely anything left to give ourselves, let alone anyone else.


I am a girl who never asks for help. I am you. We are not so different.

But I am morphing into the girl who is learning to ask for help and by doing so, I am learning to love myself and accept myself for exactly who I am. There is no shame in reaching out to a friend, a family member, or even a complete stranger - just to vent, to have someone listen to you and to perhaps give you a different perspective on what you’ve been grappling with. You are only human and you are not expected to be any more than that. Maybe it was something we experienced in our childhoods, maybe it was the abusive relationship(s) we were in or maybe it was just the lack of any kind of self-confidence being instilled into us by those who should have, that led us to feel like we need to be invincible - to be embarrassed to ask for the help that we need. Whatever the case may be, I can assure you that it is not wrong or shameful, nor does it make you any less of a person, to just reach out and ask for help when you need it. We all need to cry sometimes and just let it all out and some of us actually prefer to be alone, and that’s okay. But how much better would it feel if sometimes we could cry and have someone there who would listen to us and give us a hug? Even if you feel like you have no one in your life that would do that for you and let me tell you, I’ve been there too — I can promise you, you do. There is someone out there who wants to be there for you, who wants to help you and who wants to just, if nothing else, let you know that you are not alone. You are not alone. I am here with you all and I’ve been through it all, too.

I write this for all of you who feel like you need to do it all and be everything to everyone, all while suppressing your human need to have someone be there for you. Let my words envelop you as one, big, tight bear-hug and speak to your heart - letting you know that you are so strong, beautiful and resilient. Letting you know that you have so much power within you that is meant to do great things and is meant to help others. Letting you know that you have a beautiful soul and an amazing heart and that you, too, are so deserving of the love, generosity and graciousness that you so openly shower others with. It’s okay to ask for help. Reach out. Speak up and don’t be afraid to just take that armor off for a while and rest in the beautiful mess of emotions you feel. Let the world see you for who you are and watch what great things can happen when we learn that it’s okay to be strong and vulnerable. It’s okay to be open to the help that is awaiting us and it’s okay to start saying no to the things that deplete you and yes to the things that YOU need, that YOU desire.

Be the girl that learns to ask for help when she needs it and never feels guilty about it, because she is a beautiful, strong goddess that deserves every good thing the Universe has to offer. And don’t ever forget it.


© 2018 Christina Celeste

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      Linda M Giberson 

      7 months ago

      Immediately when I started reading I thought of the song "Never been to me" by Charlene She had a one hit wonder from the '70's. I love your writing~!

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      Her 

      8 months ago

      You sound fabulous. I am also you. You should get your birth chart done. Your posts describes that inner life of someone with a moon in Scorpio.

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