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To My Kind Of Crush

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Despite the wrinkled flesh, such a spark brings vibrancy and energy. It is the feeling which brings youth to old age. It is what you caused me.

To the crush whom I never had a chance of getting to know, it was short. But the seconds I laid my eyes on you was a thousand beats of my heart. I would then roll my eyes away as you noticed me looking at you. It was hard to resist how much I wanted to see you eye to eye. If only I had the courage, I would. I was so weak even to say hi. But my face would not lie as it turned on like a red light. As I look back at you to search, it was when I knew I had to say goodbye. But I wanted to thank you for the short yet cheerful moment with you. It was silent yet connective. I did not know if you liked me, but I was happy.

There were things which were not meant to be.

To my crush whom I hang out with but no chance of telling you, it was time to reveal it. I did not know if you knew I had a crush on you. But one thing I made sure, that was, to keep it from you. Nevertheless, I was crazy enough to find ways to have interactions with you. It was an inspiration to be seeing you. Your face was enough to make my day. But there were things which were not meant to be. And that was us, yet I would still thank you. Unconsciously, you have brought happiness to me.

It is best for us to be just friends.

To the crush whom I expressed my admiration in a not-so-serious way, I was comfortable telling it with you. But not so cozy to be formal. It was a perfect way of saying it to you though it might leave you wondering. I tell you, I half meant it. However, still, I wanted to thank you for being cool about it. With you, I realized that it is best for us to be just friends.

You let me fall but did not catch.

To the crush who I thought had a crush on me, it made me smile and feel beautiful. When you laid your eyes on me, they seemed told me how much attracted you were to me. And as a weak one, I fell on your trap and had a crush on you in return. Since then, I was looking for you and wished to catch your eyes again. My beauty did not get your attention then. So I learned not to trust a look. It can be deceiving and could leave you off-guard. It needed to be a lot of looks. Not just today but for every day. I believe the more recurrence, the bigger the chances.

I learn to live a dream in the real world.

To the crush on the screen and tabloids, you are all so real in my fantasies. You don't know me. You cannot see me, but I do. Though I can touch, you cannot feel me. But you tickle a part of me when I watch you. With you, I know how to live in dreams in the real world. It is a leap of faith having you noticing me. But thank you, I believe in fantasy, and somehow it gives a burst of sunshine on me.

There were billions of people in the world. A few of these were the ones who made us feel young. Their presence tickled a portion of our depths and awakened the youth inside us. Then it brought joy and refreshed our senses in a short while. Only in a short while because forever was not ours to say. Despite that, it was an experience not to be regretful; instead, it should be to be grateful. So, to my crushes, I thank you.

© 2019 Jason Behm

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