The Me I Seek to Avoid
Audrey is a poet, classical singer and voice teacher, recovering attorney and licensed psychotherapist.
by Artist Panther
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My #13 for National Poetry Month
the despair that grows in me
does so quietly
buckling down,
nailing in nails,
wrapped in a kind of permanence
that I hate to think about.
it is seldom seen,
preferring
to send up shoots
in the panicked dreams
of my 3 a.m. self,
that self
whose subconscious seems
best resigned to such things.
it rises,
bilious,
etched in the glass of windows
which only seek the night.
i lay my cheek against its coolness
and wonder, whether
it is the peace that i seek.
it is only a moment.
© 2017 Audrey Howitt
