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The Me I Seek to Avoid

Audrey is a poet, classical singer and voice teacher, recovering attorney and licensed psychotherapist.

by Artist Panther

by Artist Panther

My #13 for National Poetry Month


the despair that grows in me

does so quietly

buckling down,

nailing in nails,

wrapped in a kind of permanence

that I hate to think about.


it is seldom seen,

preferring

to send up shoots

in the panicked dreams

of my 3 a.m. self,

that self

whose subconscious seems

best resigned to such things.


it rises,

bilious,

etched in the glass of windows

which only seek the night.


i lay my cheek against its coolness

and wonder, whether

it is the peace that i seek.


it is only a moment.


© 2017 Audrey Howitt

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