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The Me I Seek to Avoid

Updated on April 13, 2017
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Audrey is a poet, classical singer and voice teacher, recovering attorney and licensed psychotherapist.

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My #13 for National Poetry Month


the despair that grows in me

does so quietly

buckling down,

nailing in nails,

wrapped in a kind of permanence

that I hate to think about.


it is seldom seen,

preferring

to send up shoots

in the panicked dreams

of my 3 a.m. self,

that self

whose subconscious seems

best resigned to such things.


it rises,

bilious,

etched in the glass of windows

which only seek the night.


i lay my cheek against its coolness

and wonder, whether

it is the peace that i seek.


it is only a moment.


© 2017 Audrey Howitt

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      mckbirdbks 2 weeks ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

      Hi Audrey - Your words flow like tear drops in this piece.

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      Audrey Howitt 2 weeks ago from California

      Thank you Mike--I am grateful to poetry--so very grateful to be able to articulate these thoughts and feelings in a way that sometimes resonates with others--

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      Ksenija 2 weeks ago from Novo mesto, Slovenia

      Wow!

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      Lori Colbo 2 weeks ago from Pacific Northwest

      Beautiful. We have much in common in your words here. Blessings.

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      Ruby Jean Fuller 2 weeks ago from Southern Illinois

      I like the way you go deep into the psyche and invariably come up with a poem that reaches the despair we all have at times...

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      WillStarr 2 weeks ago from Phoenix, Arizona

      Very, very good. It invokes that moment in the night when all is not well but we don't know why.

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      manatita44 2 weeks ago from london

      Vivid! Clever! Strong! Powerful! Continue ...

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      FlourishAnyway 2 weeks ago from USA

      This is beautiful, truly inspired.

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      ThreeKeys 2 weeks ago from Australia

      I, too, have awoken in the middle of the night-great imagery, Audrey!

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      Bill Holland 2 weeks ago from Olympia, WA

      You are a perfect example of the incredible talent floating around out there that hardly anyone will ever hear about....you are a superb poet!

      Happy Easter my friend!

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      Mary Wickison 2 weeks ago from Brazil

      Although many of us can relate to this feeling, you have put it more beautifully.

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      Dora Isaac Weithers 2 weeks ago from The Caribbean

      I can relate to "a kind of permanence that I hate to think about." Your expressions are so meaningful.

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      Linda Crampton 2 weeks ago from British Columbia, Canada

      This is a very effective description of despair, Audrey.

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      Missy Smith 13 days ago from Florida

      I think many of us relate to these words. A constant longing for some kind of personal identity and freedom, but we don't know exactly how to seek it. Wonderful poem, Audrey!

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      Genna East 13 days ago from Massachusetts, USA

      Oh, Audrey..this is perfect! I am behind in commenting, and just getting caught up with various hubs and hubbers. April is poetry month; how blessed we are to read and experience your singular, beautiful artistry. Thank you! Happy Easter. :-)

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      John Lyons 11 days ago from UK & USA

      Good words, if a little sad.

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      Gypsy Rose Lee 10 days ago from Riga, Latvia

      Loved this.

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