Audrey is a poet, classical singer and voice teacher, recovering attorney and licensed psychotherapist.

My #10 for National Poetry Month

if i have to write pretty today

i might scream, pull out my hair

and yell obscenities into the wind

let it carry them

to the next town over.

rain pounds, pushes at soil

that gives way every time.

i push at thoughts

that i usually push

under blankets.

it is a gut thing, tangled,

housed between my toes

and my breath.

it is a chemical chord

tied deep in flesh, this

synesthesia, seeing words as colors

spill across a page

falling into some design

like Yahtzee dice falling out of cups,

control is illusory.

© 2017 Audrey Howitt

Comments

Audrey Howitt (author) from California on April 29, 2019:

Thank you Paula!

Audrey Howitt (author) from California on April 29, 2019:

Thank you Rasma

Audrey Howitt (author) from California on April 29, 2019:

Thank you MsDora

Audrey Howitt (author) from California on April 29, 2019:

Thank you Ruby

Audrey Howitt (author) from California on April 29, 2019:

Thank you John

Audrey Howitt (author) from California on April 29, 2019:

Thank you Lori

Audrey Howitt (author) from California on April 19, 2017:

I do too Flourish--and I write a lot of that kind--but sometimes I find that people like the "pretty" stuff more--sigh

Audrey Howitt (author) from California on April 19, 2017:

Sometimes, the pretty stuff makes me want to spit nails Mike--Thank you!

Audrey Howitt (author) from California on April 19, 2017:

Thank you Bill!

Suzie from Carson City on April 12, 2017:

Audrey.....It's really just all that youthful, positive energy within, fighting and kicking to flow from you, into the world. Of course you must express it and your readers love it when you do!! Paula

Gypsy Rose Lee from Daytona Beach, Florida on April 12, 2017:

Most creative. I see Audrey that your muses are taking you on different poetic journeys. Mine are too and I enjoy seeing what they come up with all the time. Looking forward to your next.

Dora Weithers from The Caribbean on April 11, 2017:

Deep thoughts exquisitely phrased. Beautiful and meaningful.

Ruby Jean Richert from Southern Illinois on April 11, 2017:

Some days I feel I have no control, writing through them, as you say, helps elevate the stress. Another thought provoking write...

Bill Holland from Olympia, WA on April 11, 2017:

The last two lines are brilliant! I want to steal them and use them in several novels...they are that brilliant!

mckbirdbks from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas on April 11, 2017:

Hi Audrey - 'if i have to write pretty today' - what a great line

John Hansen from Queensland Australia on April 11, 2017:

Audrey, I can feel your angst. If I had committed to write a poem every day I'd be pulling out my hair (what little I have left). Good job.

Audrey Howitt (author) from California on April 10, 2017:

Hi Rachel--yes--I am a restless soul by nature--and most of the time, I deal with it in a good way--sometimes, it interferes with what I do--and lately, I have been exceptionally restless

Rachel L Alba from Every Day Cooking and Baking on April 10, 2017:

Hi Audrey, I was in bed and that is almost how I felt. It had to get up. I felt very restless and when I read your poem, it reminded me of that restless feeling. Is that what you meant?

You are so good with words.

Blessings to you.

Audrey Howitt (author) from California on April 10, 2017:

You are right-I don't shy away from those moments threekeys--I try to write my way through them

Audrey Howitt (author) from California on April 10, 2017:

Thank you manatita!

manatita44 from london on April 10, 2017:

Indeed! Beautiful as always!

threekeys on April 10, 2017:

Poetry is about the whole gammut of our emotions. Good to see you don't shy away from those moments that try you.

FlourishAnyway from USA on April 10, 2017:

I love poems filled with angst, frustration or intensity.

Lori Colbo from Pacific Northwest on April 10, 2017:

I love the Yahtzee dice falling out of cups. Another good write, Audrey.