My Memories — The Mirror

Updated on June 25, 2020
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Scull occasionally writes fictions. This is one of those rare occasions.

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The Mirror

I look at myself in the mirror and see an aging face, with bags under the eyes and ever bushier eyebrows.

I touch my cheeks and feel the soft wrinkly skin and my gray early morning beard.

My pointier elbows. My mangled knuckles and my thinning wrists.

Leaning over the sink, I put my face close to the mirror.

I notice the bump in my nose; the one Doc Rodriguez grabbed and yanked to the left and then to the right.

How he said, “Concentrate, you dumb son-of-a-bitch”. Then Johnny the Tulip put his face close to mine and yelled, “Jab and move to your right”.

Looking across the ring, sweat clouding my vision I see him. We called him Vicks VaporRub; which he hated. Maybe he was pissed because of that.

I jabbed and moved to the right, pivoting back with my left foot, and moving my head from side to side.

Why are these thoughts flooding my mind?

The mirror stares back at me.

I inspect my soft belly. My hands move to the area between my thighs and bladder. It’s mushy. It used to be toned and firm. I push in with my fingers.

As I look down, I see my knees. They have folding skin over them.

My right nipple seems bigger than the left.

I open my hands and look at my palms. My right thumb has never fully come back to normal.

The right shoulder is higher than the left.

“Remember to move your head as if you are drawing a number eight with it.”, the Tulip would always say.

“Use your stomach muscles. Use your abs.”

“Come up and hook.”

“Use your shoulders when you hook down. Go over the top of his defense. That’s knockout time baby!”

I used to have more hair in my armpits. I only have a few chest hairs left. My legs are bare.

My LG phone buzzes.

My daughter is sending pictures.

Just the other day, it seems, I was holding her hand with my right, as the other two held on to each other and I clutched onto the youngest. They all had bags full of candy, Tootsie Rolls, and Milky Way bars.

One was dressed like a clown, the other like a cheerleader, the other like a cat.

The cat’s painted whiskers smudged with the chocolate bar she sneaked out of the bag when I wasn’t looking.

She was the leader of the pack. The queen. The princess. She demanded secrecy from the other younger two. They looked up to her.

I know. I know. They all have their own lives now.

I have a bump on the corner of my right eyebrow. “Stop obsessing over your body”, I say.

The bathroom window is slightly opened so the steam can go out. I hear a meow. I look.

The stray is outside. He is hungry.

I put on my flip-flops and go into the kitchen. I mix a scoopful of dry cat food with some wet. He knows I am coming.

He can see me through the glass door in the rear. I call him Boots. But he doesn’t care. He just wants breakfast.

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    • JC Scull profile imageAUTHOR

      JC Scull 

      4 days ago from Gainesville, Florida

      Thank you Mark.

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      Mark Tulin 

      4 days ago from Santa Barbara, California

      A touching requiem for a fighter. Nice job JC.

    • JC Scull profile imageAUTHOR

      JC Scull 

      5 days ago from Gainesville, Florida

      Thank you Liz.

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      Liz Westwood 

      5 days ago from UK

      You use an effective technique of weaving your observations with memories of the past through the medium of the mirror.

    • JC Scull profile imageAUTHOR

      JC Scull 

      7 days ago from Gainesville, Florida

      True MG. Thank you for commenting.

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      MG Singh 

      7 days ago from Singapore

      Wonderful poem, cant hold father time back

    • JC Scull profile imageAUTHOR

      JC Scull 

      7 days ago from Gainesville, Florida

      Thank you Linda.

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      Linda Crampton 

      7 days ago from British Columbia, Canada

      This is a moving story. Your descriptions are great, JC.

    • JC Scull profile imageAUTHOR

      JC Scull 

      7 days ago from Gainesville, Florida

      Thank you for commenting Meg.

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      DreamerMeg 

      7 days ago from Northern Ireland

      Good start to a story, grabs attention, covers things that everyone (at least us older ones) can empathise with.

    • JC Scull profile imageAUTHOR

      JC Scull 

      8 days ago from Gainesville, Florida

      Thank you Ann.

    • JC Scull profile imageAUTHOR

      JC Scull 

      8 days ago from Gainesville, Florida

      Thank you Mary.

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      Ann Carr 

      8 days ago from SW England

      Always the good with the bad! Everything goes south, they say, and I guess that's right. But good memories are what we cherish; the body might be lacking but the mind has a myriad of lovely pictures for us to look at.

      This is great!

      Ann

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      Mary Norton 

      8 days ago from Ontario, Canada

      I try not to look in the mirror anymore, especially after waking up. I know I have to work harder to keep fit. Procrastination is my enemy.

    • JC Scull profile imageAUTHOR

      JC Scull 

      8 days ago from Gainesville, Florida

      Thank you Pamela.

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      Pamela Oglesby 

      8 days ago from Sunny Florida

      It is not always fun to look at our bodies when we get older and remember how they use to look. The one great thing we have is memories of great times without children. I really enjoyed reading your article as I related to it so well.

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      JC Scull 

      8 days ago from Gainesville, Florida

      Thank you Lorna. Your compliment means a lot.

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      Lorna Lamon 

      8 days ago

      I guess the mirror doesn't lie, however, you have created a wonderful reflection of his life, which I could picture in my mind. A really enjoyable read JC.

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      JC Scull 

      8 days ago from Gainesville, Florida

      Thank you John. Yes...mirrors are tough.

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      JC Scull 

      8 days ago from Gainesville, Florida

      Thank you for commenting Cozmic Mayan.

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      John Hansen 

      8 days ago from Queensland Australia

      JC, this was great. I try to avoid looking in the mirror unless absolutely necessary. Thanks for sharing.

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      COZMIC MAYAN 

      8 days ago

      Sounds like your telling my story.

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