You Visited Me in My Dreams Last Night

Updated on December 25, 2011
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Thank you for your message, darling.

I had a dream about you last night, sweetheart ...

You know that I often wished I could have died with you. Life here on earth seemed so meaningless without you. My need to be with you felt stronger than any desire to remain one second longer on this planet. Never mind about the other people who needed me, it just hurt too darn much. I really, really wanted to go with you. I would pray every night for God to take me so we could be reunited.

Well, you musn't have liked that idea very much.

My dream started in a large railway station full of people. I caught sight of you far away, leaning against a wall and staring at me as if you were expecting me. I could barely make out your features, but I knew it was you. I also knew that I was actually dreaming ... even while dreaming, I was conscious that I was dreaming.

When I was finally standing in front of you, you took my hand and we began walking. You were silent and your expression said nothing. I was just thrilled to be holding your hand again. As we walked further, I asked, "Where are we going, darling?" You turned your face to look at me but said nothing. There was something in your eyes, though, that finally made me realize where we were going.

I stopped. "No! I can't go with you yet, hon. I still have things I need to do," I cried. "But I need to know that you will always love me." I then started sobbing uncontrollably until you began hugging me tightly. The emotion this stirred in me was so overwhelming that I immediately opened my eyes. I saw that I was still in our bed in our bedroom, but I could not move because you were still hugging me. For a few seconds, I physically felt your arms still around me, even though I was fully awake!

At first, I was a little frightened. Nothing like this has ever happened to me before. And I know the mind can play tricks during that half-asleep/half-awake state, but there was no haziness about this. I was as alert as could be. You visited me in my dream, and your message was clear. You would always love me, but it was not yet my time to join you.

I have never asked you to give me signs that you were with me. But you did, and in such a beautiful way. I feel 100% better now. I now know that I can go on because you never truly left me. Thank you once again, sweetheart, for being my guardian angel.

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      Peter Muzyka 

      12 months ago

      Thank you Marjatta for your heartfelt and poignant posts regarding the loss of your soul mate. My dear wife Jewel died two months ago and I am finding it most difficult to cope with her loss. She was the inspiration for my art career and most everything good I did in my life for the past 47 years. Now I can’t bring myself to create art, although I write about her and us every single day. I find the things that you’ve written to bring some comfort and hope that one day I will be able to honor her memory by continuing my life’s work. Sincerely appreciated.

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      Jen_Apple 

      13 months ago

      Hi Marjatta. Thank I for these articles. I am speechless. I just lost my man 3 weeks ago due to car accident... I miss him, terribly. I wish to see and talk to him again even in my dreams.. God bless

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      AnnaCia 

      6 years ago

      Wonderful hub; beautiful song. Thank you for sharing. Hope of seeing again the ones we love. Powerful. Voted up

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      Marjatta 

      6 years ago

      Fennelseed, thanks for sharing that! It is an amazing experience, isn't it? Wishing you much peace and joy.

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      Annie Fenn 

      6 years ago from Australia

      Hi Marjatta, I relate to your dream and I understand the huge amount of comfort and relief this experience can impart. I had a similar dream where I spent time with my departed son in the mountains, just a few weeks ago. I too was aware in my dream that it was just a dream and yet my son was real and alive as if he was really right there with me. I woke up feeling the warmth of his presence still with me and I have been smiling ever since.

      I hope your visit provides so much hope and comfort as your loved is with you will wait for when you are ready to join him.

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      Marjatta 

      6 years ago

      Sharyn, thank you. Yes, writing is a great release, and I will definitely read your article "Dimes From Heaven." I love the sound of it already! Wishing you a wonderful year ahead too.

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      Sharon Smith 

      6 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA

      Hi Marjatta,

      What a beautiful gift you received. I believe we receive signs, especially when we least expect them. You may be interested in reading my poem Dimes From Heaven. I am so glad to see your continued writing, it is a wonderful release. Wishing you happiness in the coming new year.

      Sharyn

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      Marjatta 

      6 years ago

      Yes, it truly was a gift, Moms-Secret ... especially since I've never experienced anything like it before in my life. I will always consider it his way of saying everything will be okay. :)

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      Lissette 

      6 years ago from Central Florida

      What a beautiful gift.

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      msannec 

      6 years ago from Mississippi (The Delta)

      Thank you, I hope you are too!

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      Marjatta 

      6 years ago

      Thank you so much, msannec. Perhaps it was just a little Christmas gift ...

      God bless. I hope you're making it through the holidays okay.

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      msannec 

      6 years ago from Mississippi (The Delta)

      Wow, this is so beautiful! I truly understand the place where this came from, thank you for sharing this piece with us.

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