All the Grief and Despair

Updated on March 5, 2018



The murderer stood in the bathroom, looking into the mirror wondering how it got so out of hand. She cupped a handful of warm water and splashed it onto her face. She did it again, but she couldn't feel the warmth from the water. There was nothing that could warm her coldness. There was nothing at all that could make her feel any better. She started wiping her face dry with a hand towel and the ugliness of being a killer stayed there in the reflection. It was a person she never knew until the killing started.

“Who are you?” she whispered. “Who the hell are you?”

She stood almost frozen looking at her reflection. She was trying to understand the reasons behind the murders. She was hoping to see a glimpse of insanity as her image in the mirror looked back. It was another person, and she was so sure of it. There was nothing logical about killing, but the sensation sent her into a feel good rush.

Her reflection started laughing uncontrollably that it made her step back a foot. She knew it wasn't real, but nonetheless the proof was right there. It could have been just a simple hallucination, as she closed her eyes. She cupped her ears with the palms of her hands to drown out the laughter. She squeezed her eyes tight, but the laughter just roared as clear as it possibly could.

The laughing brought a freezing chill that stayed in her bones. She wanted to move away from the mirror, but she could not. It had a grip on her that she couldn't explain.

Suddenly there was nothing but silence. It was a dead silence that filled the bathroom. She removed her hands from her ears and she slowly opened her eyes.

The image in the mirror was foggy, and then it just vanished. She stood in front of the mirror but there was no reflection. Her mouth opened as she tried to scream but nothing came out. There was no scream and no reflection. There was only dead silence.

Suddenly there was a terrible crash that shook the bathroom. The silence was gone and the her reflection came back. She hadn't realized it, but she shattered the mirror with her hands. glass and blood filled the basin.

She grabbed the hand towel and started wiping the blood. She couldn't understand what brought on the hallucination, but it had to do something with all the grief and despair her conscious endured, That was the only explanation she had so she went with it.

She was a serial killer and to be in the presence of such hatred seemed to have dislodged all logic and sanity. She was good at killing and that's exactly what she wanted to do. Even though her sanity couldn't understand it, she felt good when it was done.

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    © 2018 Frank Atanacio

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      • Frank Atanacio profile imageAUTHOR

        Frank Atanacio 

        13 months ago from Shelton

        thank you so much Ann,,,:)

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        Ann Carr 

        13 months ago from SW England

        Chilling... which is what you do so well, Frank. We all have some evil inside but most of us can control it, thankfully. Any such as this woman would be ones to avoid! But how can we tell?

        Great story telling from one small scene of a reflection. Clever.

        Ann

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        Frank Atanacio 

        14 months ago from Shelton

        Missy and I respect your opinion of course...

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        Missy Smith 

        14 months ago from Florida

        There are two sides to everyone's reflection, in my opinion. Good and evil live in all of us, to some extent; even the individuals who do not seem to have a wicked bone in their body. I always pause when I hear someone say that a person doesn't have an evil bone in their body. It's not that they don't have that side; it's that they choose not to acknowledge it. We acknowledge what we want to be. If we have good values and pleasant intentions towards others, then that is what we will show and our sinful sides have no chance to overtake us.

        In a perfect world, we could wish we all had the smart sense to ignore our devil inside, but we don't live in a perfect world. We live in a world of choices, and some choose evil. But, this is just my opinion, of course. ;)

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        Frank Atanacio 

        14 months ago from Shelton

        thanks

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        Nikki Khan 

        14 months ago from London

        My pleasure Frank and good to see you too :)

      • Frank Atanacio profile imageAUTHOR

        Frank Atanacio 

        14 months ago from Shelton

        thanks for your support Nikki... and good to see you again :)

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        Nikki Khan 

        14 months ago from London

        Wonderful,,a serial killer's enjoyment over finishing another job and a sense of consciousness about her murder act but her devil mind overcomes everything.

        Just amazing Frank.

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        Frank Atanacio 

        14 months ago from Shelton

        thanks Erik for stopping by

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        Erik Boyd 

        14 months ago

        all the grief and despair, I think the title fits perfectly, a female serial killer, awesome

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        Frank Atanacio 

        14 months ago from Shelton

        Thanks Chris for stopping by and checking out my grief.. I'll stop over to return the fav...:)

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        Chris Mills 

        14 months ago from Lowell, MA through the end of May, 2019.

        Frank, excellent job delving into the character so deeply. Your focus on the emotional effect of being a serial killer was a fresh way at looking at the topic. Normally we look at this from the viewpoint of cops or psychiatrists. I like the angle.

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        Frank Atanacio 

        14 months ago from Shelton

        thank you Pegcole

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        Peg Cole 

        14 months ago from Northeast of Dallas, Texas

        You have to wonder what would cause a person to become a serial killer. I think you've answered the question in this rare insight into the mind of one. Another captivating glimpse into the dark side of life. Fascinating and chilling at the same time.

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        Frank Atanacio 

        14 months ago from Shelton

        Hari, thanks for reading my Grief.. Dseiny.. welcome to my flash and MsDora it is always good seeing you..:)

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        Dora Weithers 

        14 months ago from The Caribbean

        Frank, you seem to have a view to the inside of a person's head, mind, thoughts or whichever is right. Your imagination is a special talent. Yours is always an interesting read.

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        Hari Prasad S 

        14 months ago from Bangalore

        Wow. The crime and criminal stories you write are so terrific. Fantastic.

        You must be a psychiatrist who understands the ugly psychedelic part too.

        - hari

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        Frank Atanacio 

        14 months ago from Shelton

        LOL thank you Eric

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        Eric Dierker 

        14 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

        For some reason Frank I went for a bad dream about half way through, but your ending, made me unsure. Perhaps here dual personanality is the same.

        Your one page stories are so much better than an hour long crime show. Thanks.

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        Frank Atanacio 

        14 months ago from Shelton

        LOL.. uggg that was funny Bill

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        Bill Holland 

        14 months ago from Olympia, WA

        Well, it's important to work at your craft and hone your skills, I guess. :)

      • Frank Atanacio profile imageAUTHOR

        Frank Atanacio 

        14 months ago from Shelton

        thanks for reading KS Lane..:)

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        Frank Atanacio 

        14 months ago from Shelton

        thanks jack.. :)

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        Frank Atanacio 

        14 months ago from Shelton

        Shyron thank you for always supporting my flash...:)

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        Frank Atanacio 

        14 months ago from Shelton

        Flourish thanks for stopping by too...:)

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        Frank Atanacio 

        14 months ago from Shelton

        Lori this is a single page story.. and thank you for stopping by

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        K S Lane 

        14 months ago from Melbourne, Australia

        This is chilling. Nicely written.

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        jgshorebird 

        14 months ago

        Good capture. I was at the mirror in a freaky dark bathroom and I wanted the hell out.

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        Shyron E Shenko 

        14 months ago from Texas

        Frank, this is so sad, but your description is brilliant.

        Blessings my friend.

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        FlourishAnyway 

        14 months ago from USA

        You are getting better and better. I’d love to know who she killed and why.

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        Lori Colbo 

        14 months ago from Pacific Northwest

        Chilling and very well written. Is this a series or is this a single page story?

      • Frank Atanacio profile imageAUTHOR

        Frank Atanacio 

        14 months ago from Shelton

        thank you Clive and Manatita for stopping by

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        Clive Williams 

        14 months ago from Jamaica

        Long time I haven't heard of a female serial killer. Would love to meet her when she is not killing.

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        manatita44 

        14 months ago from london

        The mind of killers. Not easy to decipher. Strange world of cold murderers.

        Some powerful reflections.

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